You don’t have to forgive

You can deprive yourself of life as punishment

Kill your treacherous mind and flawed body

You can do it

It’s a choice

Some people say

It’s an easy choice

Guess they’ve never actually tried

Believe me

Feeling this desperate is not pleasant

Or easy

If it was

I would have been dead

A long time ago

 

There’s no answers to my problems

No hope left in my bones

I’m so alone in the darkness

No place feels like home

I’m terrified

For this life

I have no dreams

Only nightmares haunt my sleep

And I can’t be released

 

Why am I still here

Pain is all I feel

Nobody can help

I can not save myself

There is no cure

Heaven is a lie

but hell is all too real

I am done

I can take no more

Tell me what to do

Where to go

From here

 

There is no answers

Life is a complicated game

So I go insane

It doesn’t help but I can’t help it

Guess it doesn’t matter

I was born to fail

I was destined to fuck up

Sunny, now you shut up!

Get up!

Get up n keep moving

For me, I’ll keep proving

I am worthy?

Am I?

Am I??!

It’s do or die

Do or die

So I live

I live, I live, I die!