Why does it make me so sad

Why does it leave me so hollow

Why does it hurt me so bad

I know I won’t want to wake up tomorrow

 

This is all I got

This is all I have

and it is..

Not the way I wanted it to be

This wall of all the words left unsaid

This wall we somehow built in silence

It’s separating you from me

 

and I miss you, I miss you, I miss you

Like I miss the one I used to be

The one you might have loved

 

Why do we spend so much time in the same room

Staring down on these stupid screens

Living empty, shallow lives

We say we love each other but I sometimes wonder

if we even know what that truly means

 

and I picture you in my funeral

and I figure you’d feel relief

I hope that’s how it plays out

I don’t want to cause you any more grief

 

Well, for now I’m still alive

Why does it make me so damn sad

Why does it leave me so hollow

I’m missing something that I never had

Maybe that’s why..

I don’t wanna wake up tomorrow

 

This is all I got

This is all I have

and this is..

Oh, It’s so not the way I wanted it to be

The wall of all the words left unsaid

This wall we somehow built with silence

Now it feels like the wall is inside of me

 

and I miss you, I miss you, I miss you

Just like I miss the one I used to be

The one you might have loved

(Did you though..?)

 

Please don’t come to my funeral

Just smile and sigh with relief

I totally understand

After all, all I ever did was cause you grief

 

Does it look picture perfect from the outside?

Well, it ain’t exactly what it seems

Just like saying «I love you»

Not really knowing what that means

 

and it makes me so sad

and it leaves me so hollow

and it hurts so bad

that I don’t want to wake up tomorrow

I don’t want to wake up tomorrow

 

 

 

 

You’re so sweet

Don’t lose that innocence

The way you speak your feelings without filter, no pretending, no playing games

I’m such a heartless bitch..

Watching this go up in flames

 

I just want to feel it

I wish I could make it real

I want us to have it

I just cannot deal

 

The path came to a dead end

Can I go back to just being your friend

I wish it could have worked out

Wish we could’ve worked out

‘cuz I’d love to have a good thing going for me

But love is so much harder than they make it out to be..

Or maybe it’s just this hard because I am.. Me

 

You’re so beautiful

All the way to your bones

Don’t lose that light in your eyes

But maybe you should have had a closer look at me..

I am not an angel, babe

I might just be the very devil in disguise

 

I, I just want to feel it!

and I, I wish we could make it real

I wish I had a healthy heart

But I can’t seem to heal

 

You said you don’t want to hurt me ever

And neither do I, but it seems hurt is all I got to give

God, this is so depressing

So is the miserable life that I live

 

I wanted so bad to be the one you think you want

I really did try

It just seems like I am destined to fuck up

Love is so much harder than they make it up to be

(At least to me, at least to me..)

I really did try..

Love is so hard, and I don’t know why

 

I just wanted to feel it

And I wish, I wish we could make it real

Love, it’s so easy to want it

But why is it so damn hard to feel

 

I’m so sorry..

This is me talking with no filter, no pretending, no playing games

God, I am such a heartless bitch

(Still it hurts me so..)

Watching this go up in flames