Foolish heart

Stop hoping foolish heart
You’ve been set up to lose from the start..

He doesn’t feel the way about you as you do about him
He doesn’t care if you sink or swim

Stop hoping, foolish heart
He does not count each passing second you’ve been apart..

He sleeps safe and sound at night
He’s not afraid of the light
He could never comprehend
why you are so damaged.

He does not care that you are twisting and turning
And how every part of you is burning
From desire and yearning
After the scent of his skin
And the touch of his hand..
He will never be able to understand

Stop hoping, foolish heart
Or keep breaking piece by piece
Until you decease..

 

I’ll keep breaking..
I don’t care if I’m aching
Or that he is not mine for the taking
I love who I love, no matter the cost
I’ll be lonely if I must, it’s nothing new..
I may love in vain, but atleast it’s a love that’s true..

I’ll wait, I’ll wait all my life for you.

 

Quid pro quo

 

Heard your heart has healed, honey..

Don?t forget who broke it first

I am the vampire lurking in the night

And only your blood can quench my thirst

 

Did you erase me completely?

See, I don’t think you can

I never did anything discreetly

Was real good at making you feel like a man

 

My door is never open

But you can kick it in at any time

I still get in that demonic mood now and then..

and I miss my old partner in crime

 

 

I’m still waiting..

It’s misery, it’s poetry, it’s blasphemy

I feel so ugly

 I don’t think you understand.

Wish I was more of a woman

Or maybe that you were less of a man.

 

I wish I could say “Nobody will ever love you like I can”

I wish I could believe in madness all the time

So when other people cut their knives in my back

I could still breathe just fine

 

I jumped from a bridge once and broke every bone in my damn body

It still didn’t hurt as much as all the words you left unsaid

Do you not understand you have to finish this

My wounds are open and you hold the needle and thread…

 

I wish I could say “I know what the fuck I’m doing”

I wish I could yell “I don’t need anyone else”

That I could live in a damn castle I built

in my own head, a place where I’m free from the guilt.

 

Most of all I wish it was over