Under the stars

Hold me tight

Rock me goodnight

Reach for me from the other side

🌑

It’s not that I need you

It doesn’t mean that I miss you

It just gets so lonely here

under the stars

Sometimes when I’m not watching my mind

I wonder where you are

And when I’m not watching my heart

I dream of being there with you

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It’s a lonely thing

To be alive

We’re born alone, we die alone

Sometimes I feel so far from home

So I buried my heart under 6

feet of snow

At a place that only I know

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It’s not that I had to

It doesn’t mean that I’m broken

It’s just that I have no use for it

since you left my side

I’m not angry

It just gets so lonely

here under the stars

🌑

Stjerneklart ute. Kald høstluft som prikker i huden. Det er så mye jeg ikke vet, så mye mellom himmel og jord jeg ikke forstår. Jeg liker at det er sånn. At livet til syvende og sist er et mysterium. At uansett hvor mye kunnskap menneskeheten tilegner seg vil det store bildet forbli skjult. Vi skal ikke vite alt. Det er ikke ment for oss. Jeg synes det er vakkert. Vi er bare mennesker. Jorda var her før oss. Jeg håper hun overlever oss. At hun leges fra sårene vi har påført henne. At hun består etter at vi er borte. For vi vil en gang dø ut. Det er det eneste jeg er sikker på.

Code red

Hold meg i hånda

Før meg gjennom dødens dal

Jeg er ikke religiøs

Jeg trenger bare en hjelpende hånd

akkurat nå

Mens stormen raser mellom ørene mine

Og det fryser til is mellom ribbeina mine

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Ikke se ned på meg

Møt blikket mitt heller

Jeg tåler å lese skuffelsen i øynene dine

Jeg tåler alt, bare jeg blir konfrontert med det

Ikke synes synd på meg bak ryggen min

🌑

Ikke gå fra meg

Her på bunnen av ingenting

Jeg er ikke redd

Jeg føler ikke så mye lenger, for å være ærlig

Akkurat dét burde kanskje skremme meg

Men man blir vandt til det meste

Eller kanskje bare nummen

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Ikke bli av sympati

Må du gå, så må du gå

Jeg tåler å høre skrittene dine bort fra meg

Jeg tåler alt, bare jeg blir konfrontert med det

Og for å være ærlig

Burde noen andre leve i mitt sted

For jeg har gitt opp håpet

Kanskje da vil jeg få fred

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Junkie

It's a substitute

It's self medication

It makes me feel cheap and hollow

And I hate you for stringing me along

Making me desperate for leftovers

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Love me, love me, love me

🌑

It’s heroin in my veins

The lust I feel between my thighs

Making me feel dirty in a bad way

In dire need of just one more hit

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Leave me, leave me, leave me

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I swear each time you walk out that door

My heart drops all the way to the floor

and every time I think this is the last time

Then you’re knocking on the door again

and I greet you with open legs

Fuck me..

A string of words I put together

I sometimes dream that we are together

Even if I promised myself I wouldn’t

and I’m aware I really shouldn’t

To give imagination free wings

is to jeopardize my sanity

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And still

Still it feels so right

To wish you’d company me in the night

For me to give you my all

Even if it means risking to fall

and break every damn bone in my body

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Shatter my mind

Into a thousand pieces

Until I’m left clueless

Broken

Lost

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And yet

If someone would ask

I’d tell ‘em

It was worth it..

Empty words

Life is this

weird and scary thing

with its up and downs

Calm and storm

Life and death

🌑

I wish I knew

how to grab it with both hands

Shape it to the form I’d like

Live the way I want

🌑

No room for joy it seems

Only misery exist within my skull

Only hatred flows in my veins

I loathe the person looking back at me in the mirror

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If I could switch places with you

Wherever you may be

I would happily grant you to live in my place

I have no use for it

My life is a cage

and only death will set me free

🌑

Excuse me for being too scared

For taking my time

I will eventually join you

There at the other side

Wherever you may be

I’m just asking you this last favour

Take my breath and set me free

Drop the bomb

So it seems I’ve played out the hand I was dealt

I may be a smooth talker, but I’m no politician

I might be a flirt but I’m nobodys wife

And I fuck up all the time but

after all it’s my life

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I’m gonna drop the bomb

Said I don’t need you

Watch my ass walk out the door

I’m heading somewhere better

Yeah, and I’ll find someone better!

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Some say I’m dumb but

I don’t repeat my mistakes

(That’s a lie though)

Some say I’ve been around but

I can keep track though

I may be a total failure but

At least I get up each time I’m knocked down

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I’m gonna drop the bomb

(Drop the bomb yeah!)

Said I no longer love ya

Watch my ass walk out the door

I’m heading somewhere better, hah!

I’ll find someone better, yeah

🌑

Watch my, watch my..

Ass out that door

I’m not turning around this time

Daddy’s girl

I dreamed about my father,

He said:

‘Surely kid, I get that you miss me

But you gotta find a way

to set yourself free

From the guilt that weighs you down

From the pain and the misery

Darling child o’ mine, I know you feel guilty..

But you must begin to live your life

Live your life..

Take it from me, it goes by so fast

Hold on to the light and let go of the past

These troubled times must eventually pass’

🌑

Daddy if I die

Will I find you on the other side

Are you waiting for me beyond this realm

Daddy if I die..

Daddy, sometimes I wish I would

Don’t blame me if I try

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In the dream he spoke to me

Said: ‘Child, if you could see what I see

How much more you could be

If you just put your efforts on living

And treated yourself more forgiving

Death is for the dead, you must remain with the living

I’m cheering you on from the other side

But darlin’ child, you must live your life

Live your life

These troubled times must eventually pass’

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Daddy if I keep breathing

Will it be worth it some day?

Right now I’m just wasting time away

Daddy please don’t leave me

I need you to stay

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Once I went crazy, heard my dad in my head

And for a moment I forgot he was dead

I saw him walk towards me, I thought it was real

We believe what we see, we believe what we feel..

And I heard him say: ‘Child, you gotta live your life

Live your life..

I’m always by your side

Now go ahead and live your life’

But daddy, I don’t know how

No exit

When did life become like this

Like a small box without windows

No exit

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It’s hard to breathe in here

Hard to move

Hurts to feel anything

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Am I gonna die like this

All by myself, in a small box

No exit

🌑

I cannot see in here

Everything is pitch black

No love remains within these walls

🌑

Is this all I have been fighting for

A small casket without a door

Why does it feel like I’ve been here before

No exit

🌑

It’s so cold in here

My body is numb

This is no home

It’s a tomb

🌑

No exit