I am the weapon..

You ruled this town back when I was born

24.12.87..

But these streets belongs to me now

and with cold wings I’m coming..

 

I think I know just where you hide out

I know exactly what and who you hide behind

Your damn title that you think makes you a god..

Your little flock of sheeps, fools that let you be in control because they can’t think for themselves..

But you have grown older

and I have only grown stronger

The dragon baby is not a baby anymore..

But I still breathe fire

So burn..

 

I know what it is you want from me

You’ll never have any of it

I know who you want me to be become..

I’ll rather die than fulfill your fantasy!

 

I am not your personal Jesus doomed to forgive and forget..

I am the cold blade pressed against your neck

I am not your little victim..

I am the weapon!

I am the weapon..!

 

You think I’ll ever be under your control?

You think I’ll ever let this go?

You think you’re so smart, but you could never figure me out

The way I always knew exactly what you are

Stone cold psychopath..

Welcome to the aftermath!

 

And while you have grown older

I have only grown stronger

and I still spit fire..

and I guess you have burned ever since

 

I know what you want from me

You’ll never ever have it

I know who you want me to become

I’ll die before I fulfill your fantasy!

 

and it’s killing you, I know it does..

I know I do!

 

I’m the one who haunts you, I’m the one keeping you up at night..

I am not your personal Jesus doomed to forgive and forget..

I am the cold blade pressed against your neck

I am not your little victim..

I am the weapon

I am the weapon..!

 

I still breathe fire..

and we both know you’ll burn ‘till you die..

 

 

Can you just talk to me

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

But everytime we speak I just want you to go on forever

I don’t want silence to interrupt

I just want you to keep talking

 

This is so strange to me

How you never drain me

How you just fill me up

 

So can you keep talking, keep talking

’Cuz I don’t feel like walking, walking away

Or smoking..

I don’t need any of my unhealthy habits

If you just talk to me

 

I forget your voice in between

Heck, I even forget what you look like

But every time we pick it up again it’s all so familiar

and I’m back to just wanting your company

The conversation that just flows so naturally

It feels weird walking away

 

and this is so, so strange to me

How you never drain me

You just fill me up

 

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you..

I think it’s just you

and I just want you to..

 

Keep talking, keep talking

I don’t feel like walking, walking away

I leave my damn cigarettes at home

I travel across town

Freeze to death on bus stops at night

and I’m so cool with it

 

I just want you to..

I just need you to..

Can you just talk to me

Just talk to me

 

You make me wet you know

The words that comes out of your mouth so effortlessly

Turns into a damn river between my legs

If we move it somewhere else

I just want you to keep talking

(And moan, and talk, and moan)

 

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

So anything but boring

Or maybe boring is just way more fun than I thought it was

I’m not the right person to tell if something is normal or not..

I just enjoy it

I just enjoy you

 

and all I want

All I need

I just want you to keep talking

Can you just talk to me

 

Do you need to sleep?

Do you have to work?

Do you really gotta be somewhere else?

I know you do, it’s just..

 

Can you just talk to me

And this is so strange to me

Mostly talking to myself for all these years

 

But I just need you to

I just want you to..

Can you just talk to me

Can you just talk to me?

Cuz when you do, I don’t really need to be anywhere else

Not even in my own head

 

And you deserve a reward for that, I guess

For taking my mind off my mind..

And I for sure can’t do that.

and I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

I think it’s just you..

 

 

 

 

I just want more

Ok, so I jumped the gun..

Could not resist 😉😇

Ps: In case anyone is completely dense, I’m talking about fucking your brains out haha.. My familia might not want to read this.. Now u’r warned 😉

 

 

What can I say,

there really wasn’t any other option

When I want something I don’t have time to play

And I have zero regrets, because GOD you’re good

Hit me up next time you’re in my hood..

 

I just need more

I just want more

So before you kick me out the door

Yeah, I just want more

 

I’ll do whatever you want ‘cuz I want it too

And I love all the stuff your body can do..

And I can’t get enough

I’ve never been this hungry before..

 

Whatever you want, whatever you need

I’ll do it

I’ll do it!

Let me spoil you completely

Just don’t delete me

(Not yet, ‘cuz I need more before I let you go

I’m obsessed, I’m so ready

Now you know..

 

Slow or fast, it’s the same for me

You fit so well, it drives me insane

Your body is perfection, but it’s the personality that truly gets me going

I just want more..

Can’t help it..

And now you know

 

It never gets as good as in my head..

Oh, my fantasies usually don’t play out in bed

(Can you read my mind..?)

But with you.. What can I say, what can I do but..

 

I just want more

I just need more

So before you kick me out the door

Just give me one last fix

I can’t stop thinking ‘bout it!

 

I just want more

I JUST WANT MORE

If you let me..

I’ll do whatever you want ‘cuz I want it too

and I love all the stuff your body can do..

 

I just need..

Yeah, I just want more

 

 

 

 

All I can think about..

Ok, so..

Maybe I jump the gun here

(can’t help it, some parts of me are trigger-happy)

But to be honest there’s parts of me I’ve believed to be dead

And now I can’t get it out of my head..

 

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

 

(Just let me do it!)

 

Ok, so..

Maybe it’s too soon to talk about it

and maybe I should think about it some more

It’s not like I’ve never made mistakes before

But all I want is to jump the fucking gun

I just can’t get it out of my head

 

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way..

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

 

(You gotta let me do it..)

 

I can do without a lot

And I have..

Seems I’ve lived a thousand years in loneliness

and now I can’t even finish on my own

And it’s all because..

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way..

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

 

Aah!

 

 

So sad

I can publish these lyrics now that I’m OVER it, haha 😉 Our hearts can heal, my darlings!

 

 

Driving through the country-side, singing out the window

Life felt good in that moment

Blasting music, admiring your side-profile

God, you’re handsome when you smile

I’ll never see that smile again

 

I miss it so bad

You’re a part of my past

It’s one of those perfect memories

Now it just makes me so sad

 

Drinking on your porch

Doing my makeup in front of your mirror

My lingerie on your bedroom floor

Cruising down the highway on your bike, arms wrapped around your shoulders

Life felt good in those moments

But it’s all over now

 

I miss it so bad

It’s all part of my past now

Those perfect memories

Now they make me so sad

 

These days it’s like I wake up, never really waking up

Talk like a zombie, walk like a zombie-

but my head is constantly racing

Suicidal, dark thoughts fire away

How could I not surrender?

 

I wish it hadn’t ended this way between us..

I wish none of this had happened..

But it did, gotta roll with the punches

You were a little break from battlefield life

Then you broke my heart a little bit

(Yeah it’s true, you did)

 

I miss it so bad

It’s all part of my past now

Those perfect memories

Now they make me so sad

Now they just make me sad..

 

SAUDADE

This song is ment to be screamed Chester Bennington or Will Ramos style.. Give it a go.

 

Can I go back..?

Can I go back??

 

Can I travel in time until you are mine..?

Like you once were..

While you were still here

All these years passed, still I can’t let go

I can’t let go..!

 

Can you come back..?

Can you come back??

Can I breathe for you, can I gift you this life I’m slowly wasting..?

I no longer know who or what I’m chasing

I just know you can’t be replaced

Just like you can’t be erased

I refuse to let the memories fade

 

If you can, live on in me

Live on in me!

 

Can we go back..?

Can we go back??

Rewind to the last bitter words I spoke to you

God, how I regret my poisonous tongue!

The worst part is:

I wasn’t even angry

Just sad and heartbroken over your fate, over the hand you were dealt

It was so damn unfair

I cried for you in my darkest most desperate moment

But you weren’t there

 

Let me go back..?!

Let me go back!

I swear I’d do things different

I swear I would be stronger, if I get a second chance I won’t break

But I can’t go back..

I know it..

Just like I cannot change your fate

 

I cannot change your fate

I can’t go back

You can’t come back 💔

 

 

 

Life, you bloody bastard

Ok, so

We need to have a serious conversation

I’ll talk and you’ll listen

Hey, just hear me out!

 

Yeah yeah, I get it

You like pushing me around

i swear one day you’ll regret it

when I’m no longer around

When I’m no longer around!

 

’Cause I don’t think you really want me to die

No, I think you just wanna test me

See how much I can take

Life, you bloody bastard

It’s true though, sometimes I break

But so far it’s still you and me

Life, you bloody bastard

I hate and I love you and I get a feeling you feel the same

 

Yeah yeah, you get it

When I’m crawling on my knees through the trenches

I swear, there are times I regret it

Spent so much of you waging war with myself

But what are you for, if it ain’t for learning lessons

I’ll admit it: It would be boring if you made it too easy, if you went too soft on me

 

Just hear me out, I just need a tiny break

A little time, to catch my breath

 

So life, ya bloody bastard

Can you just hear me out for a sec

I’m not asking for a lifetime of bliss

Heck, I won’t even ask you for years..

Just give me a few months without a single knockout

Pretty pretty please

Just let me catch my breath in between the battles

I mean, it seems kinda fair to me

Can we strike a deal?

I’ll give you my brain, you can take it

If you’ll just let me enjoy it for a little while

 

Dear life, you bloody bastard

Can you let me have some peace of mind?

Some comfort in my own body?

Just for a little while..

I mean, c’mon

Just give me christmas

Just let me have that

 

Life ya bloody bastard..

I get it, you like pushing me around

I swear you might just regret it

when I’m no longer around

 

Just give me a little bit..

Just let me have a little bit..

Just give me a little bit of time to be myself

 

Pretty pretty please!

Oh life, you bloody bastard

Why are you putting on the gloves again

This next knockout can wait, can’t it?

You don’t have to show me who’s the boss

I swear I’ll stay in the ring

You’ll get your rounds

 

Just give me a little bit

just let me have a little bit

Just give me s little more time

with myself.. So I can be myself

Just let me have that

 

 

Vintersøvn

Eg hørre ingenting

Føle ingenting

For någen timer har eg sjekka ut og inn

fra beikmørkt helvete te lyse paradis

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

og kvile mitt plagede håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

og får pause fra mitt syndiga håve

 

Eg ser ingenting

Gruble ingenting

Når eg lukke øyå og sjekke ut og inn

fra beikmørkt helvete te lyse paradis

På slikt et magisk vis..

(Bare lukk øyå og la deg driva med)

Lukk øyå og bli med søvnen til et bedre sted..

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Og kvile mitt hjemsøkte håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Time-out for mitt skakkjørte håve

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

Den går sånn..:

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Og kvile mitt slitne håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Får en pause fra mitt hjemsøkte håve..

 

Jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si (Galskapens rike)

Tok nok en tur til galskapens rike

stedef du ikke besøker

uten ar alle gode tanker må vike

Angrer som besatt

Nå er alle dagene blitt klin like

(her er det MØRKT)

 

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Ja, jeg gjorde det, jeg gjorde alt

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Det er sprøtt så gæern man kan bli

 

Alle sa «nå skjer det nok igjen»

Jeg sa ikke faen

Men nå er det pokker meg på ‘an igjen

Er jeg en drittsekk om

jeg ønsker at dette skjedde med en ‘aen..?

 

For jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Ja, jeg gjorde DET også, jeg gjorde alt

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Det er helt sinnsykt hvor gæern man kan bli

 

Tok en tur til galskapens rike

Stedet du ikke slepper ut fra

Uten at alle gode tanker må vike

Angrer som besatt

(Jeg har vært besatt!)

Nå er alle dagene blitt klin like

 

Og jeg veit ikke hva jeg skal si

(Hva skal jeg si!)

Ja, jeg har gjort ALT

Galskapens beist vil du IKKE ri..

(Men jeg gjorde det, gjorde jeg ikke)

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt!

Kunne smilt litt i dag, men vil ikke

Alle dagene har blitt kliss like

Etter en tur til galskapets rike

Stedef du ikke besøker uten atte..

Alle gode tanker må vike, vike..

 

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal siiiiii…

Det er jo faen meg helt god natt

Hvor gæern man kan bli

 

 

Where do you go when darkness comes

Oh how I wish I’d just wake up

But this is reality, and now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn

I would have crossed a bridge or two

But I’ve set them all on fire and now I watch as they burn

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

But now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn!

 

Oh how I wish I’d just wake up

and it was all just a dream

But this is my worst nightmare and I’m living it

It’s so much harder than it may seem

I can only watch from within as my whole world crashes

Crash, burn and reduced to ashes

 

Why do I have to do the shit that I do?!

And now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn to!

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

Oh how I wish I’d just not wake up…

Wake up to another day in the wake of the perfect storm of self-destruction

My brain could use a back-up

Or maybe a whole new reconstruction

Oh how I wish I’d just not wake up! Cuz..

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

But I am stuck here.. Where do I go?