Vintersøvn

Eg hørre ingenting

Føle ingenting

For någen timer har eg sjekka ut og inn

fra beikmørkt helvete te lyse paradis

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

og kvile mitt plagede håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

og får pause fra mitt syndiga håve

 

Eg ser ingenting

Gruble ingenting

Når eg lukke øyå og sjekke ut og inn

fra beikmørkt helvete te lyse paradis

På slikt et magisk vis..

(Bare lukk øyå og la deg driva med)

Lukk øyå og bli med søvnen til et bedre sted..

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Og kvile mitt hjemsøkte håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Time-out for mitt skakkjørte håve

 

For eg har gått i dvale

Drømmene mine e så myke og svale

Sammenligna med en virkelighet av betong

Her e min vintersøvn-song

Den går sånn..:

 

For eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Og kvile mitt slitne håve

Eg synde ikkje når eg sove

Får en pause fra mitt hjemsøkte håve..

 

Jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si (Galskapens rike)

Tok nok en tur til galskapens rike

stedef du ikke besøker

uten ar alle gode tanker må vike

Angrer som besatt

Nå er alle dagene blitt klin like

(her er det MØRKT)

 

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Ja, jeg gjorde det, jeg gjorde alt

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Det er sprøtt så gæern man kan bli

 

Alle sa «nå skjer det nok igjen»

Jeg sa ikke faen

Men nå er det pokker meg på ‘an igjen

Er jeg en drittsekk om

jeg ønsker at dette skjedde med en ‘aen..?

 

For jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Ja, jeg gjorde DET også, jeg gjorde alt

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si

Det er helt sinnsykt hvor gæern man kan bli

 

Tok en tur til galskapens rike

Stedet du ikke slepper ut fra

Uten at alle gode tanker må vike

Angrer som besatt

(Jeg har vært besatt!)

Nå er alle dagene blitt klin like

 

Og jeg veit ikke hva jeg skal si

(Hva skal jeg si!)

Ja, jeg har gjort ALT

Galskapens beist vil du IKKE ri..

(Men jeg gjorde det, gjorde jeg ikke)

Det var så varmt, nå ‘erre kaldt!

Kunne smilt litt i dag, men vil ikke

Alle dagene har blitt kliss like

Etter en tur til galskapets rike

Stedef du ikke besøker uten atte..

Alle gode tanker må vike, vike..

 

Og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal siiiiii…

Det er jo faen meg helt god natt

Hvor gæern man kan bli

 

 

Where do you go when darkness comes

Oh how I wish I’d just wake up

But this is reality, and now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn

I would have crossed a bridge or two

But I’ve set them all on fire and now I watch as they burn

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

But now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn!

 

Oh how I wish I’d just wake up

and it was all just a dream

But this is my worst nightmare and I’m living it

It’s so much harder than it may seem

I can only watch from within as my whole world crashes

Crash, burn and reduced to ashes

 

Why do I have to do the shit that I do?!

And now that madness is done with me there’s no place left to turn to!

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

Oh how I wish I’d just not wake up…

Wake up to another day in the wake of the perfect storm of self-destruction

My brain could use a back-up

Or maybe a whole new reconstruction

Oh how I wish I’d just not wake up! Cuz..

 

When the lights go out, they really go out

Pitch black, all I can see

Where do you go when darkness comes

This is not a place to be

 

But I am stuck here.. Where do I go?

 

 

Take me away from myself

Back from outer space

Trying to blend in with the human race

I feel so damn alien, and it’s showing on my face..

 

Take me away from myself, I need that kind of therapy

Take me away from myself and save me from my misery

Take me away from myself

I did not learn from my own history

 

Meds for my head

Take away my personality

Maybe I’m better off like this

I’ve fucked up enough, I can’t fuck up some more!

I’m questioning myself to the core

 

So take me away from myself

I need that kind of therapy

Take me away from myself and save me from my misery

Take me away from myself..

I can’t believe my own history!

 

Back from outer space

Time to face the disgrace

I feel so numb, how can I show my face..?

 

Take me away from myself, I need that kind of therapy

Take me away from myself and save me from my misery

Take me away from myself

All I do is repeating history..

 

Brand new

You’re so beautiful

Like the sun sparkling on snow

You’re so damn beautiful

I love you so much more than you know

 

But baby, I am messed up in the head

Baby, I’m practically dead

i just haven’t formalized it yet

 

And I wish I could be brand new

Maybe then I could be more like you

I wish I was brand new

Maybe then I could do the cool shit that you do

 

How did you come out so perfect?

How come I’m such a mess

I think you got blessed

I think I was tricked

My body is flawed and my mind is thick

 

But baby, you’re so beautiful

Like the sun sparkling on the snow

You’re so damn beautiful

I love you so much more than you know

 

And I wish I could be brand new

Like a flashy car

I wish I could be brand new

Maybe then I would get far

 

I wish, I wish, I wish!

That I could just wake up tomorrow and be brand new

Like a perfect barbie doll

But all I see in the mirror these mornings

Is the anxious old troll

 

But I wish I could be brand new

Less like me, and more like you

Wish I could be brand new

A lot less like me, a lot more like you

 

Baby you’re so beautiful..

 

 

 

Goodbye for now

I’ve messed up and I can’t take it back

Slowly, slowly I’m painting the whole world black

and you don’t have to tell me I’m wrong by doing so..

But in time of crisis we do what we know

and this is all I know how to do

Take all the good things and just let ‘em go

 

So goodbye for now

Please don’t check in later

And please; be assured

I am still my biggest hater

 

I don’t know the way to the place that’ll set me free

I can’t remember anything that did not leave a mark on me

 

There was a time I thought I’d found the cure for life

There was a time I was damn good pretending I was happy

But a tragedy happens all of the time

Now I’m just being sappy

Caught up and crushed by misery

A tragedy occurs all the time

Turns out I was just outta my mind

 

So goodbye for now

Please don’t drop by later

I know I’m supposed to love myself

But I am such a traitor

 

I’m closing all the doors, I can’t let anyone in

I know you’re supposed to love life, but I don’t and I guess that is my sin

There’s an angel fighting a devil in my mind, and the latter seems to win

But in time of crisis we do what we know

and this is what I do, take all the good things and let ‘em go..

 

So goodbye for now

Please don’t check in later

I am still my, still my

I’m still my biggest hater

 

Goodbye for now

Turn the pain into music

Aa-aa-aah

I feel the sting again

Aa-aa-aah

I feel the knife, twisting in my wounds

What can you do, but sing

 

Let’s turn the pain into music

It’s kinda worth it if you can use it

Let’s turn the pain into music

It’s worth it if you can use it!

 

Aa-aa-aah

I just wanted to stay in bed today

Aa-aa-aah

But I have something to say

What can you do,

sing the pain away..

 

Let’s turn the pain into music

It’s kinda worth it if you can use it

Let’s turn the pain into a melody

I can’t be hurt that severally!

 

Let’s, let’s turn the pain into, into music

It’s kinda worth it if you know how to use it

Turn the pain, turn the pain into music

 

Aa-aa-aah!

 

 

 

Calling on you

I, I live a stolen life

I, I cheated destiny

I live this life so broken, so messed up

Because it was never ment for me

 

I, I was never supposed to bloom..

I, I was supposed to die in the womb..

 

So I’m calling on YOU!

Calling your name

Is this the end

Hold me again

Death; my one true friend

 

I, I am my enemy

I, I cheated destiny

I live this life so empty, so fucked up

Because it was never ment for me

 

I, I can taste it on my tongue..

I, I was supposed to die young..

 

So I’m calling on YOU!

Calling your name

Is this the end

Hold me again

Death; my one true friend

 

Calling on YOU!

 

 

I’m gonna die

I can feel it in the air

I can feel it in the earth

I don’t, I never have;

belonged here

 

A wild animal, tryna pose as human

Failing everytime, misery awaits

A love, a longing, a life; never ment for me

It’s time to close these gates

 

I’m gonna die

I’m gonna die from this

and I wish

I wish I’d never exist

I’m gonna die

I’m gonna die from all of this

 

A poisoned river, these veins

Hollow is this crazy head

Plenty of room for mines and bombs and all kinds of destructive shit

I wrote a lot these past couple of months

But didn’t really mean any of it

 

I’m gonna die

I’m gonna die from this

and I wish, I wish!

That I didn’t exist

I’m gonna die

I’m gonna die from all of this

 

Maybe not today..

Too much of a coward still

Maybe not tomorrow..

I guess someone else will

But a long life down this road,

God please just no

There’s gotta come a day for it and I will go

 

I’m gonna die

I’m gonna die from this

and I wish

I wish I didn’t exist

and all I can say is I’m sorry that I do

and I’m so sorry if I ment something to you

 

’Cause I know, I just know

Love doesn’t last on these terms

Doesn’t grow in this ground

Love for me

Is nowhere to be found

 

and all I can say is I’m sorry

 

 

 

En låt om hvordan det skulle ha gått..

Ka enn du jørr nå..

Ikkje ring det jævla polit.. Faen!

NÅ E DET PÅ’AN IGJEN..!

 

For helvete kalle

Helvete gjalle

på innsiå av

min forbannede skalle

 

Ka enn du jørr nå..

Ikkje kom med en jævla tvangsparagraf..

Faen!!!

Nå e det PÅ AN IGJEN..!!!

 

Di jævla hora, ditt faens hespetre

Det e for helvete meg sjøl eg snakke te

Du kan bli gal, du kan bli loca

Alle skamme seg over deg nå

Står der og synge som ei jævla kråka!

 

For helvete kalle

Helvete gjalle

På innsiå av min forbannede skalle

 

»Does it feel good?»

E du faen skrudd?!

Å rota seg inn i galskapens gap

Den ete deg og spytte deg ut i slintrer!

Den eie deg og gjør sommer om te iskald vinter!

 

Ka enn du jørr nå..

Ka enn du jørr nå..

Eg e bare en galen taper på NAV

So do your thing, purkefaen:

Sikt midt mellom øyå og TREKK AV!