A heavy heart

Late night thoughts, I hate them

I’m plotting revenge, but I’d rather look into your perfect eyes

How do I deal with the memories

How do I deal with the lies?

 

I want to puke

Smoking cigarette after cigarette just to breathe

There’s some people I gotta nuke

But baby, you promised I would not have to do this alone

 

The biggest lie I gotta cope with

Cigarette after cigarette

Oh, I wish I’d choke on it

 

Late night thoughts, how they haunt me

I need sleep, but I need you more!

I hate you so much right now

For bolting shut the door

 

You said forevermore

 

And I kinda hope I die tonight

The same way my father did back in 2003

I can’t live without looking into those perfect eyes again

I can’t believe you can do this to me!

 

And I want to puke

Smoking cigarette after cigarette just so I can breathe

There’s some people I gotta nuke

But baby, you promised I would not have to do this alone..

 

But fuck it, and fuck you too.

I’ll finish this all by myself..

That’s exactly what I am going to do.

 

 

A system of complete control

Didn’t want to get outta bed today, bed today

It’s not okay to be treated this way, treated this way

Psychiatry and me, we got beef

And you got a prize to pay, prize to pay

’’Cuz it’s not okay to be treated this way

Treated this way!

 

I’m singing songs to cheer myself up

Swallow pills with water from white plastic cups

I get injections with poison in my ass

But I’m doing the work on my own

I’m healing from my past

 

’Cuz I’m not all that bipolar baby

My doctor says so, but he could be the insane one maybe

I got Complex PTSD

From what those fucking doctors did to me

And if you keep on reading you’ll get the full story

 

’Cuz I’m writing songs to let it all out

Every word I say in here is met with doubt

I’m forced to take these injections with poison in my ass

But I’m doing all the work on my own:

I am healing from my past

 

They raped me first and then they tortured me

And then the other doctors spent 12 years covering it up

So now I’m in this shitty position- AGAIN

A system of complete control

Swallowing pills from white plastic cups

 

So I’m writing songs to let it all out

You can hear my words and greet them with doubt

My wounds are healing and I won’t bleed out

Yeah, I get injections with poison in my ass

But I’m doing all the heavy work on my own

I AM HEALING FROM MY PAST!

 

 

Ps: Heia Norge!

 

 

A little bit crazy

Smile når de beltelegge deg

Injeksjoner på tvang og straff for sang

Har sagt det før men seie det igjen

At denne gang bler siste gang

 

Crazy, you drive me a little bit crazy

And that’s on you, not me my baby

At least I’m nobody’s little puppet

No one gets to pull on my strings

That’s why my angel wings turn into dragon wings

 

Knuste ruter og blod i øyet

Någen blir skremt og någen synes det e løye

Den jævla purken med pepperspray, glemme aldri han

Han va faen meg så lite te mann

 

Crazy, you drive me a little bit crazy

And that’s on you, not me my baby

At least I’m nobody’s little puppet

Nobody gets to pull on my strings

That’s why my angel wings can turn into dragon wings!

 

Arrogante leger med gudekompleks

Eg lange ut i rein refleks

Faen at ting bare må gå sin jævla gang

Har sagt det før men seie det igjen:

Denne gang blir faen meg siste gang!

 

 

See you at the cemetery

I know you hoped this would be the last of me

You’ve always underestimated me

Well bad news: I’m still alive bitch

I’ll see you at the cemetery

 

All the lies, all the torture, all the weight in the world

I’ve carried it all my fucking life and I ain’t dropping shit now

Aiming for the Utopia I know could exist

Yeah, it’s true: Death was hard to resist

Sometimes it’s been my only wish

But I’m choosing LIFE

You’ve always underestimated me

I’ll see you at the cemetery

 

Will you fight me?

You have to

I know that’s what we got left to do

You have ALWAYS underestimated me

I might just bury you but it won’t be at the cemetery

 

I’m king amd queen of the day now

I no longer hide from the light

I no longer long for death

I long for the final fight

 

And it’s gonna be between me and you

Turn off the lights and claim to be God, doc!

I’m both David and Goliath and I don’t need no fucking rock

You should not have underestimated me

Fatal mistake

Your life is now mine to take

I’ll see you at the cemetery

 

See you at the cemetery, bitches!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m not dead yet

And this is so far from over.

 

In fact it’s just the beginning.

 

To be continued

So is all of Norway ok with rape and torture of innocent children??

ANSWER ME

You are all on trial now..

OR YOU WILL ALL BE MARKED BY MY BLOODY HAND..

 

Psykiatrien dreper

Nå får alle vite det. Nå henger vi dere ut.

 

Our gallows are waiting to hang you.