It started with the rap and the rhymes for me, and I think that will always be my jam.
Still got nightmares about it
I dream about my teacher warning me
»If you miss out on more now, what do you think you’ll ever be»
I always knew that if I dropped out, I might just never find a way back to a normal life
Bye to the kids, the picket fence, the damn dog, being somebody’s wife
But life happens, life crashes, and life sometimes stabs you with a knife
High school dropout, I’m that high school dropout
I know everyone thinks it was an easy cop out
But depression hits hard, and it hits you fast
and you’d be surprise how long that shit can last
I was so damn young, but I got stuck
Yeah I got stuck in the past
My best friend called, she said «What the fuck is going on»
and after a while no one even bothered to blow up my phone
I guess they saw that the girl I used to be, she was gone
I was like a living dead, I was haunted in my head, and the friends I had they all moved on
High school dropout, I’m that high school dropout
and everyone probably thinks it was a cop out
but depression hits hard and it hits you fast
and it doesn’t help that when everything falls apart
Pretty soon all you are, is an outcast
Yeah, all I am is the outcast
I stressed myself the fuck out, ‘Cuz I knew that if I dropped out I’d lose it all
But you’d be surprised at how fast and how hard you can fall
I couldn’t get up in the morning, all I wanted was to die
I lost all my reasons, I no longer had a ‘why’
I wanted to die, and damn it I would even try
But what do you know, I failed at that too
What a shock, huh, I fail at everything I do
High school dropout, I’m that high school drop out
Everyone thinks it was an easy cop out
Nah, I just wanted to be cropped out
I just wanted to not exist anymore
I didn’t just close that door, I wanted to close every door
You lose all perspective when you are flat out on the floor
Depression hits hard, and it hits you fast
and you’d be surprised how long that shit can last
So I dropped out, I dropped out
and now I am the outcast
I’m the, I’m the outcast
High school drop out, but I’m still alive I guess
Soon 35, still trying to figure out this mess
I guess not a lot of people would call this success
Then again, I kinda do
After all I’m the only one who knows
all the shit I’ve waded through
High school dropout, I’m that high schooldrop out
High school dropout, shout out to my high school dropouts
and to everyone who knows what it feels to be knocked the fuck out