There’s something about the light and the sounds of the day
Helps me keep my feelings at bay
I tell myself I’m doing okay
Then comes the inevitable night
and with the darkness I am led astray
Here’s the words I just can’t say..
Oh, it’s the midnight blues
and I am so tired of walking in my shoes
All the terrors I have lived through, they play on repeat
And I am a child again, pitted against forces I just can’t defeat
My bones are trembling, I feel so weak
There’s crimes in my past of which I just can’t speak
and I’m so tired of walking in these shoes
It’s that time of the night again
It’s the midnight blues
There’s a sense of normalcy during the day
Helps me keep all the monsters at bay
and I can tell myself I’m doing okay
But every day must surrender to night
and then I am no longer doing alright
This is my eternal battle that I must fight
Oh, it’s the midnight blues
and I am so tired of walking in my shoes
All the terrors I have lived through, they play on repeat
And I am a child again, pitted against forces I just can’t defeat
My bones are trembling, I feel so weak
There’s crimes in my past of which I just can’t speak
and I’m so tired of walking in these shoes
It’s that time of the night again
It’s the midnight blues
Little girl, I don’t want to be a little girl again
and I just want to feel safe in this world again
I want to kick off my shoes
and escape all these feelings,
these midnight blues
It’d night again, I lose all my grown-up tools
I go back in time again when darkness rules
Oh it’s the midnight blues
It’s the midnight blues
Are these flashbacks something I somehow choose?
What is it about the night that sets me up to lose?
I just call it the midnight blues
Oh, it’s the midnight blues
and I am so damn tired
of walking in these shoes
I’m not asking you to understand
I’m not begging you to hold my hand
It’s just that right now I am not okay
and this is just my lullaby to myself
made from the words I cannot say
It’s my midnight blues
It’s just my midnight blues
