Two steps forward, ten steps back
Courage and wisdom are things that I lack
And my self respect is dead and gone
Life fucking hurts, I’m broken and bruised to the bone
So fucking insecure..
I hate myself
Yeah, I hate myself..
but I love you more
I can’t do this!
If I die, will you let me stay asleep?
I can’t do this..
I’m too scared to walk out the door
If I die, don’t let me come back to life
Sometimes I think I’ve been here before
I feel too much
I think too damn loud
I love my mama but
I can’t find a way to make her proud
I go crazy either way
Sad, happy, here she goes again
Call the cops, reel me in
I try so hard but I just can not win
And it’s taking its toll
How can I be this immature, and yet feel so old..
I don’t want to!
Open my eyes to another day
My fucking haunted head, always leading me astray
Why, god, why am I made this way??
Shut me off, kill me now
Or let me live, just tell me how
Just tell me HOW
I can’t do this…
Get your shit together
Stitch up your broken pieces
and keep moving
Your head is weak, so your heart must be strong
You know who you want to become
Get out of your foxhole, soldier
You’re still alive and the war ain’t over
I just don’t
Just don’t want to..
Can’t see that I’m worthy
To keep fighting for
If I could believe in myself the way I believe in you
I’m so sorry for the shit I put you through
And still you stand by my side
Making it so damn hard to leave it all behind
If only I could keep you, but leave myself..
If only I could handle this life without losing my mind
I’m not cut out for this hellride
And I’m not worthy of your love
But I love you back ten times for it
And I’ll try
If you keep believing in me
Maybe someday I can too
Keep moving soldier!
You’re still alive
and the war ain’t over
I can and will do this
I’m broken and bruised to the bone
But I have your love and with you I belong
I get so fucking lost sometimes,
but I always find my way back home
And if you can live with me being like this..
I owe it to you to be just as strong.
Daughter! Sister! Soldier of life!
My head is weak, and my heart might be too..
But if I can, I will make it strong- for you.
I’ll snap back from the insanity
Yeah, I’ll keep moving forward- I’ll do it for my family
I can’t do it for me, but I will try for my family.
Because you are my why.
You are the best part of me