By the northern shore..

You sleep forevermore.. 

Buried under the snow

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I love you so much more than you’ll ever know

I’ve felt something real for someone who’s fake

But all these years passed, you’re still my biggest heartbreak

and I’m so sorry you never got to grow old

But I swear this life is not gonna make me cold

I buried my heart with you, you can keep it

I don’t think I’m gonna need it

I’m not gonna need it!

By the northern shore

You’ll sleep forevermore

I buried my heart in Båtsfjord..

Keep it, dad, I’m not gonna need it

The twists and turns of this life..

It can be very hard to navigate sometimes

And it slaps you in the face and stabs you in the chest

At times it feels like one big test

and I know I’m not gonna grow old..

But I swear I won’t die cold

I won’t die cold!

You never know what people are capable of before the damage is done

I might have buried my heart with my father, but I still have one

Yeah, I still have one!

I buried my heart with you, you can keep it

I don’t think I’m gonna need it

I’m not gonna need it!

By the northern shore

You’ll sleep forevermore

I buried my heart in Båtsfjord..

Keep it, dad, I’m not gonna need it

It’s with you, but I still feel it

Yeah, I still feel it

❤️‍🔥

I just want to type in something funny, something just for the hell of it, write another song where I don’t give a single fuck. I’m just not feeling it. But I don’t feel like writing about how I am actually feeling right now either. So I’ll just do what I always do and freestyle. About aaanything other than my emotions.

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I’m in my bed and in my head again

(Fuck!! I’m talking ‘bout emotions..)

Switch topic!

I wonder what and who you’re doing right now?

(Nope, wrong question)

I’m doing really bad at this

I need to change direction

I just need to not give a fuck

I just need to not give a fuck

I JUST NEED TO NOT GIVE A FUCK..!

(and I really didn’t so how did I get here??)

So yeah, I’m in my bed and in my head again

But you can stay out of it, so I can’t be there

C’mon now, bitch- what do normal people think about

(Oh fuck, I don’t have a clue)

I just have a fucking pit in my stomach

And it looks a lot like you

(FUCK!!)

Ok, ok, let me try again

We can talk about how stupid I am

I was doing good, I still am

(It’s just.. Oh, fuck)

Ok, I would not change a thing

(That’s how stupid I am)

Some people mess with you just ‘cuz they can

And I just need to not give a fuck

I just need to not give a fuck

I just need to not give a fuck..!

Can I ask a serious question tho?

How do you walk around made of stone?

I don’t think I wanna know

I’ll take THIS over THAT any day

I feel it all, and sure there’s a prize to pay

But I would not have it any other way

I would not have it any other way!

Phew, I got the words right there because now I feel okay

Yeah, now I feel OKAY..

And if I could tell you just one thing of worth

It is that it is OKAY TO HURT

IT’S OKAY TO HURT

(Fear nothing my darlings.. Feelings least of all ❤️)

I should be sleeping

Instead I am lying here weeping

If only you’d know where I’ve been and where I have to go

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All my scars you’ve never seen, even if you have seen me naked..

I’m tattoeed from head to toe with invisible ink

You felt different

Because you felt the same

I need to talk about it in therapy

All the stuff I’ve carried for so long I can’t remember

I just don’t know how..

I AM part Aphrodite, part Hera..

I’m just always forced to be the latter

I’d wish you’d let me be the first

Just for a little while..

God, I need it so desperately

But I never get to be cuz..

Tough girls suffer the most

Yeah, tough girls suffer the most..

And the world will never believe it

Trust me, I know

I don’t need anything from anyone

I have always been alone it seems

These cruel nights, I spend them in my own company

Drowning in a sea of misery

I hurt because it hurts

I’m not the type to numb the pain

I feel every ounce of it

I guess that’s the bravest thing I do

I can say this for certain, but can you..?

I will work through all of this like I always do

But it will require strength, and I would love a place where I could just be soft

I thought maybe I’d get to do that with you

That’s why I fucked you without armour

and came to you with no weapons

Big mistake..

Do I seem like a machine to you?

Like most people expect me to be like?

I guess I do, but just know that..

Tough girls suffer the most

The world will never catch us a break

Yeah, tough girls suffer the most..

And the world will never believe it

’Cuz we are tattooed from head to toe with invisible ink

and no one ever sees it

No one ever sees it

And I want to scream it to the whole wide world

But they would never believe it..

Tough girls suffer the most..

Yeah, tough girls suffer the most

It shouldn’t hurt this much, I feel pathetic

I loved my dad’s big heart, but I hate my own-

can’t help that I feel so intense, it’s genetic

Gave it two shots, now do I regret it?

No, I can’t because..

Time moved different with you..

I really gave you everything when you entered my body

It just happened naturally

I wasn’t ready to let it go

But I had to

and I hate that..

You said you’re out, I said I was never in

If that’s true then why do I feel like crying

Why do I feel like crying..?

I wrote it myself: Nothing in this world we live in lasts forever..

I hate how I’m wired sometimes

I said some things I shouldn’t have like I always do

Happens every damn time I get hurt

I can never say it to your face

But I’m sorry, for what it’s worth

You said you’re out, I said I was never in

If that’s true then why do I feel like crying

Why do I feel like crying..?

I wrote it myself: Nothing in this world we live in lasts forever..

And it’s true on my part: Nothing in my world lasts forever

Forever..

Just going through the full range of damn emotions.. Hope I don’t give you wiplash!

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There’s some places I wish I’d never been

There’s some faces I wish I’d never seen

I already know it’s gonna haunt me

I already know it won’t be easy to forget

I learned so young you can hold but you also gotta let go

I think I could have loved you, you know..

Why did I have to..

Why did you have to..

I wish we’d never met

I was doing fine

Just minding my own business

I moved on long ago

Things were finally falling into place

Now I can’t stop thinking ‘bout your face

Or how you made me feel

I’m so mad dumb

’Cuz none of it was real

Why did I have to..

Why did you have to..

Oh how I wish we’d never met

There’s stuff I wish I’d never done

Always said I was born to run

but some rare people just feels like home

and you miss them as soon as they’re gone

And I haven’t felt that feeling a lot to be honest

Still I learned so young you can hold but you also gotta let go!

I think I could have loved you, you know

You didn’t have to hit me where it hurts the most..

I hate you for starting this

I want to forget it all

But when I close my eyes I’m back in your arms and..

Why did I have to..

Why did you have to..

Oh I wish we’d never met

They say «just because you can, doesn’t mean you should..» Well, fuck that! If you can, DO it and then add extra horsepower to it 😆

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This time I don’t feel like over-explaining shit

More like just rrripping out your throat and get it over with

Did you think you were the G.O.A.T and I was your little bitch..?

You should read up on my last song, cuz I really did FLIP switch!

Yeah, I can be an asshole and I can be a dick

and I eat men like you for breakfast prick

And then I spit you out ‘cuz you taste like shit!

I’m a dragon you dumb little sheep

Did you really think I’d feel anything but scorn..?

You can refer to my up-coming lyrics as ‘revenge porn’

I am part Aphrodite/part Hera

and if I want I can get wet like the river Madeira

but I also got a brain and a tongue like a sword and a shield

I am master of the WORD, welcome to my battlefield!

I said welcome to my battlefield!

Yeah, I can be an asshole and I can be a dick

and I eat men like you for breakfast prick

And then I spit you out ‘cuz you taste like shit!

I got you in a choke-hold and I don’t care if you tap

Just tap-out you bitch!..

I’m going for the SNAP!

And who the fuck has the balls to say girls can’t rap..?

You should have screwed over Eminem, he would have gone softer on you..

You should have researched me better, so you’d know the stuff I can do

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! I can be an asshole and I can be a dick

and I eat men like you for breakfast prick

And then I spit you out ‘cuz you taste like shit!

Yeah, I can be the biggest asshole and the biggest dick

and to tell you the truth I am PROUD OF IT!

Maybe it means something, maybe it doesn’t – with me you never really know 😉 Either way it’s just a song!

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Said I never really plan anything

Told ya’ll I am forever in freestyle

Don’t be pissed..

I flipped the switch

I am heading in another direction

Have no clue where this road will lead

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

Flip switch..

I also told ya I’m that bitch..

A free bird with strong roots

but I have wings for a reason..

Gotta walk in my new pirate boots

I don’t mean this as treason

It’s just like new songs, you can’t write the same one over and over

I guess if you should label me anything you can call me a rover

I just know I gotta move

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

Don’t be pissed

I flipped the switch

I am heading in another direction

Have no clue where this road will lead

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

Ships are ment to sail off in the sunset

I just got legs and I don’t know where I’m running to yet

I just know I gotta move..

Some things ain’t that easy to explain

I guess I just can’t handle anything that sounds like a chain

I said I never really plan anything

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

I just can’t deal with other people’s opinions on how I should live this one life I got

I just can’t fit it into a tiny box with a perfect facade

Something ‘bout that to me that just doesn’t feel brave

Now MY nature is calling and I gotta go!

I just know I gotta move

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

Don’t be pissed

I flipped the fucking switch

I’m heading in another direction

Have no clue where this road will lead

Told ya’ll I’m forever in freestyle

I am FOREVER IN FREESTYLE

🎵🦋🎵

Jeg synker litt om dagen, må innrømme det. Uførelivet er så JÆVLIG drit for min del og jeg trives bare ikke med det 🙁 Alt av rutiner sklir ut, jeg orker ikke stå opp uansett når jeg våkner omtrent, og mister alt av motivasjon.. Var så klar til å starte 2026 med ny jobb, og har vært så skuffet over at det ikkje skjedde.

Men i dag fikk jeg faktisk telefon fra bedriften jeg har søkt på! De ringer i løpet av neste uke for å gi meg tidspunkt for intervju.. Så nå ruller ballen der hvert fall!

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Planen min for denne uka var egentlig å trene hver dag, rydde ferdig hula mi så jeg kan komme meg hjem, være mye sosial- men energien er jo på bunn av livet jeg lever nå så jeg har trent to dager og vært litt sosial- og kjenner vel egentlig på at jeg har kasta bort veldig mye tid som jeg kunne brukt på bedre valg for meg selv. Ja, og så røyker jeg så mye at det burde faen meg ikke vært fysisk mulig engang.. Kjenner på det også. Følelsen av at jeg bare ikke fikser det jeg vil fikse på nå, den er så kjip.

Er så typisk at når det først blir sånn så går jeg inn i en vond spiral og vipps så er jeg i kjelleren igjen. Og jeg vil ikke dit!! ORKER bare ikke mer tid der akkurat nå. Så må ta grep nå, før det går så langt.

-Jeg må jobbe med døgnrytmen og den må ha førsteprioritet over alt og alle.

-Jeg må røyke mindre, for herregud.. Det har blitt så jævlig krise, og jeg har mistet all kontroll. Hjelp..!?

-Jeg må få skikk på hjemmet mitt så jeg kan flytte hjem, tviler jo genuint på om jeg klarer meg på egenhånd nå etter flere måneder som husokkupant hos verdens snilleste mamma 😅

Dette har jeg skrevet før vet jeg 🙄 Faen ta den finger’n min som er så vanskelig å få ut, faen ta manglende viljestyrke og disiplin, og faen ta meg. Nå kjenner jeg på den velkjente følelsen av at jeg er komplett håpløs igjen. Det er den verste følelsen..

Men sånn er livet for meg hvert fall, det rykker og halter og jeg snubler og tryner og det gjelder vel egentlig bare å reise seg opp igjen hver bidige gang. Blir bare så sliten av det, og jeg blir sliten av meg selv! Når jeg vet hva og hvor jeg vil, hvorfor kommer jeg meg aldri dit..? Hvorfor må jeg sabotere for meg selv? Og HVORFOR er jeg ekspert på å rote meg inn i ting og så jævlig dårlig på å rote meg ut av dem..? Uten at jeg skal gå for mye inn på det. Dere skjønner vel litt av greia fra låtene jeg skriver at the moment, men ikke prøv å finne den røde tråden for den har jeg faktisk rota bort selv haha 😅 Det har blitt faen så komplisert hvert fall. Eller det er vel jeg som overkompliserer i det jævla hodet mitt. Det hjelper ikke på situasjonen akkurat!

Ja, ja. Jeg har hatt min andre treningsøkt for uka i dag, og om jeg klarer en i helga så blir det hvert fall tre totalt. Får si meg fornøyd med det for nå, denne uka blei kanskje ikke den beste på så mange måter, men nå gjelder det å bremse selv-sabotøren i meg for det er virkelig bare hun som kan dra meg hele veien ned til helvete. Skal prøve å ha en bedre helg hvert fall.. Kjenner bare at jeg er så jævlig irritert på meg selv som har rota bort den gode flyten jeg var i i sånn.. Ti sekunder av det som har utgjort mitt liv. (Nå er jeg kanskje veldig selvkritisk her for ting går fortsatt egentlig mest bra altså..)

Ønsker en god helg da ❤️ Om noen føler for å gi meg et solid spark i ræva, så er nå rette tidspunkt å gjøre det på 😉

I swear I’m not cold

I’m just a damn realist

I’m not going to grow old..

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That’s why I go through life as a hurricane

I don’t believe in anything

I have tried pretty much everything

We get told so many lies, my dear

But dying alone was never my worst fear..

You can drown in my eyes for a while

I can crack my soul wide open

I swear it’s never been truly broken

I can go all-in without making a single sacrifice

You can enter heaven between my legs I guess

but nothing lasts forever in this world we live in

I swear I’m not cold

I’m just a damn realist

I have seen too much maybe

Got so many ghosts from my past

and I know so well

each and every day could be my last

I don’t believe in anything

Except all that we got is this moment

Can you just be here with me while we both breathe

Look up from your screen

and I’ll come clean

When it comes down to it, none of us can go through life like a machine

You could go down on me and drown there

but I’d let you come up for air

I swear I can’t run dry

You could go all-in without making a single sacrifice

I learned so young that you can hold but you also gotta let go

and nothing lasts forever in this world we live in you know..

Nothing lasts forever

Forever..

Can we just have the moment

Everything is touch and go..

And nothing lasts forever you know

I have no sense of direction

I get easily lost

Yeah, I’m a little lost..

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I did not plan any of this

Guess I’m just star-crossed

This is gonna hurt

I can already tell

Just let me spend some time in paradise before I return to hell..

I got one leg in two boats

Not sure which one will float

I’ll probably sink them both

and I should say something I guess

But the words are stuck in my throat

The words are st..stuck in my throat!

I just want to live in the moment

It’s finally all right to be here

I don’t wanna think too much about anything

Yeah, some things ain’t crystal clear

But I can’t be bothered to analyze

I bet I’ll regret it

I’m aware it’s probably unwise

’Cuz this is gonna hurt

I can already tell

I just need some time in paradise before I return to hell..

I just need some time in paradise before I return to hell!