Play divide and conquer

Like some Roman Emperor

You’re the tyrant, I’m the servant

The whip is in your hand

Every word you speak is another demand

You mistreat me

‘cuz you can

 

Because I let you, I keep walking in circles but I never walk away. You’re the bitch talking in my head- and I just let you stay

 

I want to rise, you say “Sit down”

I do my makeup, you say I look like a clown

Wanna make new friends, you whisper they’ll hate me

Wanna climb up, you laugh and sneer that the fall will break me

You’re the tyrant, I’m the servant

and I’ll never be free

 

Don’t you ever get curious

Or is your only mode furious?

If you were on my side, how far we could go?

Is the reason you linger in hatred

Because you’re afraid you already know..?

 

You mistreat me ‘cuz you can

Well, maybe I’m done getting slapped by my own hand

And maybe I’m done walking in circles and I’m starting to understand

The bitch talking in my head, that’s my voice right there

If it’s my voice that means I can make it disappear

Might keep walkin’ in circles but

I’ll find my way outta here

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See, I’ve been thinking

and staring into the wall without blinking

Spend too much time like this

Like I barely exist

Can’t get my shit together

 

All I know is..

If you drag someones trust trough the dirt

Someone’s bound to get hurt

 

See, I was hoping

That if you’d see me actually coping

Got a little braver..

So you wouldn’t think “Save her”

Maybe we could be together

That’s crazy talkin’, but..

 

..All I really know is

When you gamble for more than your worth

Someone’s bound to get hurt

Guess you’re an angel now

Well, I liked you better back in your demon days

Are you allowed to look at me like that

Come closer and smell me, tell me again you’ve changed your ways

I won’t tell a soul if you misbehave

Oh I like it when you misbehave

 

 

Tell me you don’t miss the stench of fear or the taste of blood

Or the weight of a sword in your hand

Tell me it doesn’t feel good:

To be a savage just because you can

 

So you go by the book now

Well, I might have burned some pages

Don’t look at me like that

It feels good to be bad, baby

So much better than being sad

Took a while to get over

The best thing I ever had

Still I keep crawling back

Hungry and desperate for all that I lack

 

Tell me you don’t miss the stench of fear or the taste of blood

Or the weight of a sword in your hand

Tell me it doesn’t feel good:

To be a savage just because you can

 

Well, you’re still wicked since you keep stabbing my back

And I would kill you I guess, if I just knew where to attack

I can’t seen to harm that pretty face, n’or that incredible body

I want you so bad it hurts

Guess you’ll kill me first

 

Tell me you don’t miss the stench of fear or the taste of blood

Or the weight of a sword in your hand

Tell me it doesn’t feel good:

To be a savage just because you can

You can’t seem to break me

That’s why you hate me

You kick me down I get back up

Bleeding, wounded, scarred for life maybe

But I get up and that’s why you hate me

 

Well maybe I’ve come to the conclusion that I hate you too

Hate your delusions and your institution

Think it’s time for a revolution

I speak the language of the underdogs and I’m fluent in rage

You know this

I did a demonstration on your stage

 

If we scream “WAR”

Would you face me on the battlefield

Or would you hide behind a human shield

We got unfinished business

I’ve waited all my life for this

One day you’ll have to pay

One day that day will be today

 

You tried so hard to break me

I’m the cockroach that got away from underneath your foot and that is why you hate me.

The serpent slithering into the dark and boy do I long to coil around your neck.

I would never kill you, darlin’. That would be to give you RESPECT.

 

Do you remember how you tortured me?

Well, guess what I have planned for you..

I’ll be around you every day, I know how much you hate my face..

Well my face will invade every inch of your space.

I’ll let you hate me all day, darlin’.

All day, ‘cuz I’m the one that got away and that is why you hate me.

That is why you hate me.

That is why you hate me!

 

Now you’re trapped so feel free to hate me.

Your hate is what imprisoned you, and now I got my hook in you.

You hate me, and darlin’ I love that you do

Guess what, I’ve learned to hate you too

 

Careful what you speak

Someone’s paying REALLY close attention

 

That is not your friend, this is not your brother.

That’s not your lover, and you have no mother

 

Look into the mirror

See how your smile is like a wound?

Who’s that behind you

Don’t turn around to soon

 

I’m not crazy

I’m not crazy

I’m not

 

Be careful what you think

Before you turn it into action

Have you lost control yet

You seem to stand on the brink

Maybe you should JUMP

Your ship’s about to sink

 

They whisper behind your back

Someone’s making a call

Everyone is concerned

Think you should go to the hospital

It’s time to RUN

 

I’m not crazy

I’m NOT crazy

Am I crazy

 

Don’t think so damn loud

Someone is listening to every word

Dark wings are spreading over this city

Snakes are crawling in the streets

Soon the dead will stand on their feet

And you have no where left to run

 

Is every face familiar?

Have you been here before?

Whatever you do:

Do NOT let them lock that door

 

Your heart is beating way too fast

Your sanity, it can not last

Slipping, drifting, snapping nerves

Can no longer separate present from past

 

I’m crazy am I

Am I good or bad

I’ve lost myself

And I was all I had

 

I was all I had

Your skin, my sin
Oh lord forgive me, ’cause I still
Love him

I can’t forget.
How hard I’ve tried!
I sleep by myself and I don’t wanna know who’s creeping up with you tonight 
I can’t help but wonder
If all your feelings for me have died
Oh lord erase him for me
You know that I have tried

Your touch, my death
I loved you with my mouth first
Maybe that’s why I’m out of breath
Your face, I can’t replace..
Your hands speak the language of my body
You are the gasoline that lights me on fire
You are the embodiment of my desire

Only you could ever penetrate my mind..
You were the greatest treasure I ever stumbled upon
I had you for a moment then you were gone
Now your someone else’s treasure to find..

Oh forgive me lord
I know he was never really mine
And I’ll pay my dues in hell for him
For what is left of my time

Your skin, my sin
Lord it was worth it, loving him

I was drowning in a dark and bottomless ocean

In my mind we’d all survive

but some of us never learned how to swim  

and some just long to sink

 

I could feel the sharks circling around my feet

In my mind thoughts were spinning..

There is no heaven above us

and no hell underneath

 

And there is such beauty in that

It’s such a big relief

I am nothing but the words I speak

and even my bones will turn to dust

Do you feel fear towards death..?

 ‘Cause all I feel is a starving lust  

 

For silence, and only silence

For what is truly peace

So let me drown in waters deep

I am ready for my release

 

I am the bad seed  

The darkest sheep

I do the worst deeds

To fulfill my wicked needs

 

Oh, but am I incomplete- 

or just full of shit

Tell me please..

I can take it

 

I am always there for you to blame

The puzzle that won’t fit into your “perfect” game

I am the skeleton in your closet

I’m the reason you can’t close it  

 

If I do a 180..

Turn my life ’round would you still hate me?

I have this feeling I’ll never measure up  

Maybe that’s why I keep fucking up  

 

Oh but is there anything about me you could love at all?

I’ll selfdestruct if that’s what you want..  

In fact I’ve already jumped  

Now I’m in freefall  

 

Don’t you dare shed a single tear on me

 

It’s a story with no beginning and no end

Where the villain and the hero is one and the same

It’s a burning lust hidden in someone elses past

It’s a future made of dust and a love that couldn’t last

 

You remember my name

 

It’s a body reeking of fear and a mind filled with mines

It’s a place you’d never want to return to

Where reality gets blurry lines and all your worst enemies aligns

And they won’t stop the torture until both soul and body resigns..

 

You remember my face

 

It’s a corridor with numbered doors

Soulless eyes and brutal hands

It’s calling out for help. But you are speaking in a language

That no one understands

 

You remember my voice

 

The body can endure what kills the spritit

and hell is a room with a bed and chains

Strapped so tight, never ending pains

Being forced to forgive and forget

And hear them laugh because you make no threat

 

You remember and I will never let you forget

 

Stop hoping foolish heart
You’ve been set up to lose from the start..

He doesn’t feel the way about you as you do about him
He doesn’t care if you sink or swim

Stop hoping, foolish heart
He does not count each passing second you’ve been apart..

He sleeps safe and sound at night
He’s not afraid of the light
He could never comprehend
why you are so damaged.

He does not care that you are twisting and turning
And how every part of you is burning
From desire and yearning
After the scent of his skin
And the touch of his hand..
He will never be able to understand

Stop hoping, foolish heart
Or keep breaking piece by piece
Until you decease..

 

I’ll keep breaking..
I don’t care if I’m aching
Or that he is not mine for the taking
I love who I love, no matter the cost
I’ll be lonely if I must, it’s nothing new..
I may love in vain, but atleast it’s a love that’s true..
I’ll wait, I’ll wait all my life for you.