I swear I’d get over it if I could
And everybody tells me I should
But how do you bury the skeletons
in your closet
When you lack the bones?
I’m not upset
Just wish I knew..
Was hoping you’d tell..
Dreaming of living in a world
Where I could count on you
You always leave me in a dump
Feels like I’m America and you’re my Donald Trump..
You fuck me up, babe
I need you now
Not like some damn hero
Not like a knight in shining armour
I need my fucking savage.
And like feathers, his fingers run down my skin
Then why do you make me bleed babe
I’ll confess, he is my sin
But when the devil is knocking..
I let him in
I don’t get much sleep when he stays the night
And when he’s not around
I am walking on the walls
Buildt my heart like a battleship
Solid, unbreakable..
But he just came and torpedoed it
But I would die for him, and he knows it..
And he will be
The death of me, I know.
But he’s so worth it, and I can not let him go.
You let me chase my own tail- in a race,
you never intended for me to win
And you let me huff and puff at every door-
not once did you let me in.
You amplified my fears, shot the arrow straight into my wounds-
Kept me walking, bleeding on glass, as long as I was obeying your rules.
You gave me affection, only when I needed it the least-
only so you could turn on me
all those moments when I really was weak.
But a weight has been lifted from my shoulders
Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.
And there is revenge in knowing
You will selfdestruct all on your own.
You said you had my back, and then you stabbed it
Guess it had to break, for me to learn.
And if there is any love in you at all
it’s a love I no longer have a wish to earn.
And a weight has been lifted from my shoulders
Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.
And there is revenge in knowing
that now you know, that it is me who is strong-
and it’s been me, all along.
It was never real, none of the pages in our history
Your words, your gentlest touch, it was always all hypocrisy-
The love you think you have for me..
It’s useless and worthless, and now that I can see that..
It is I who have set myself free.
And you are left- playing the only role in your parody.
And a weight has been lifted from my shoulders
Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.
And there is revenge in knowing
Unless you change, you’re doomed to die alone.
You underestimate me
When I’m on my knees
You confuse this with love
How I hate that disease..
And all your friends tell you how I played them
Just for turning them down with a smile.
And now you think you’re something special
It was funny for a while.
But I chew my leg off when I’m captured
Like a god to a fool
The master to his servant..
You’ll be my king for the night
But you’re nothing but a tool
I know the prize to pay for being dumb
and it is worthless
Real love takes time
But 5 minutes in and I’m feeling restless
I might just be heartless
Life has made me numb
All my illusions, broken like a shattered mirror
I can not feel you
But I enjoy having you under my thumb
