Sunniva Creative soul with a crazy twist

I have no sense of direction

I get easily lost

Yeah, I’m a little lost..

I did not plan any of this

Guess I’m just star-crossed

This is gonna hurt

I can already tell

Just let me spend some time in paradise before I return to hell..

I got one leg in two boats

Not sure which one will float

I’ll probably sink them both

and I should say something I guess

But the words are stuck in my throat

The words are st..stuck in my throat!

I just want to live in the moment

It’s finally all right to be here

I don’t wanna think too much about anything

Yeah, some things ain’t crystal clear

But I can’t be bothered to analyze

I bet I’ll regret it

I’m aware it’s probably unwise

’Cuz this is gonna hurt

I can already tell

I just need some time in paradise before I return to hell..

I just need some time in paradise before I return to hell!

Sitter her på gjerdet

Gresset er vel grønt under snøen

Kan velge å stikke nå

Hoppe på en buss i andre retning

Hva tenker du på?

Alle mine svar blir bare gjetning

Jeg tenker faen også, dette var jeg ikke forberedt på

Tenker faen også, jeg kunne vært hos deg nå

Det er vinter, det er kaldt

Men jeg er varm overalt

Kroppen min vil bare en ting, hodet mitt vakler

Kan velge å stikke nå..

Kanskje, kanskje ikke..

Faen at du er så vakker

Livet er så merkelig, for litt siden ville jeg bare dø

Før var det hodet mitt, nå er det en annen del av meg (😉) som gjør meg sprø

Må bare få deg ut av systemet

(Kan du bare la meg få deg ut av systemet??)

Kan velge å stikke nå

Unngå hele problemet

Men jeg har vel fått deg på hjernen.

Og jeg tenker faen også, dette var jeg ikke forberedt på

Jeg kunne vært hos deg eller jeg kan stikke nå

Det er vinter, det er kaldt

Men jeg er varm overalt

Kroppen min vil bare en ting, hodet mitt vakler

Kan velge å stikke nå..

Kanskje, kanskje ikke..

Faen at du er så vakker

Jeg hater at jeg føler så intenst..

Gikk fra å være nummen til å brenne opp

Hva skal jeg finne på imens..?

Tenker bare på en annens kropp

»Your body is a wonderland»

I want to spoil you just because I can..

Åh faen, Sunniva: Stopp!

Men faen heller, dette var jeg ikke forberedt på

Jeg kunne vært hos deg eller jeg kan stikke nå

Det er vinter, det er kaldt

Men jeg er varm overalt

Kroppen min vil bare en ting, hodet mitt vakler

Kan velge å stikke nå..

Kanskje, kanskje ikke..

Faen at du er så vakker

Kanskje, kanskje ikke

Jeg sa: Kanskje, kanskje ikke..

Gah..

Late at night, and thoughts are spinning

Round and round in my head they go

I wish I was somewhere else right now

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But I can’t think about it ‘cuz..

Angels need their sleep you know

Bad girls stay up thinking bad thoughts

Twisting and turning and tossing around

We all have haunted heads, don’t we

We’ve all been through the flames of Hell in one way or the other

Fuck, I’ll just say it since you’re sound asleep

I could have kept you up this whole damn week

It’s nuts, I’m starving, I’m loca

I feel lost when I don’t know when I’ll see you next

Have my hands even been all over your body yet?

Have I touched each inch of perfect skin?

and when you come inside, baby that is my medicine..

Late at night and my thoughts are winning

Massacre the sleep I long for

So I can catch a break from this haunted head

Guess I’ll stare at the roof as a substitute..

I want to make porn in my mind, but I can’t ‘cuz

Angels need their sleep you know

Bad girls stay up counting the seconds

Trying real hard to shut off our minds, but they’re just wired differently

You try being traumatized..

We should all feel proud we’re still alive

I’d rather dream of you

If I can just close my eyes and drift off, will you meet me there..

Wish I was angel material too

They won’t even let me apply

I’m just a bad girl doing bad things and I can’t even sleep at night

Nothing I do is ever alright

But when I’m with you all I want is to grow wings and a halo

You make me wanna be so damn good

But I just cant, cuz..

Bad girls need sleep too

It’s just hard for us to sleep when angels do

We have all lived through the flames of Hell in one way or the other

The dark ain’t always safe to us anymore

Twisting, turning, tossing around

Counting seconds..

Waiting for the light outside the window

For the world to feel safe again

So sleep, angels. And then it’s the bad girls turn..

I need a fucking break

Can’t help it, I’m that bitch

and I don’t like to wait..

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Superkupp innen sport og friluft du gjør nå

I gotta run with my feelings

This shit has been hard to deal with

You move too slow!

Life’s just too short, you gotta let me know..

I can’t live in the unknown

We talk about it, I crack jokes like I always do

Make you laugh, but this shit is serious

Lately the beast between my legs have been all kinds of delirious

Guess it’s time to cage her now

Fuck! I don’t want to!

Or I should look for a replacement

But who can do the stuff that you do..

I’m in my head a lot

When I’m with you I guess I’m not

That shit got me hooked

Now I’m seriously cooked

I should be searching somewhere else

but I don’t know where to look

I need a fucking break

Can’t help it, I’m that bitch

and I don’t like to wait

I don’t like to wait!

Life is so fucking short, don’t you know..?

We talk about it, I crack jokes like I always do

Make you laugh, but this shit is serious

Lately the beast between my legs have been all kinds of delirious

Guess it’s time to cage her now

Fuck! I don’t want to!

Or I should look for a replacement

But who can do the stuff that you do..

Who can do the stuff that you can do..?

Shit.

You’ll see this.. I know you will. Here’s a fucking lullaby for the real psychos 🔥

You fear death, don’t you..

I fucking know you do!

You want my forgiveness more than anything

But you’ll never feel deeply enough to be sorry

Your time will come, old man

I won’t forget, and neither will death..

You can cheat in life, but you can’t cheat HER

And when they open the gates of Hell..

Because they will

You’ll just have to walk right in

and you will wait for me there..

If I can’t settle this in this life

I want the last battle to be among the flames!

I was a little angel, you bloody fool

But I’d rather grow horns than be your tool

Your wicked games, your evil tricks..

Could never mess with my core

I am not afraid to die, you bitch

I have died before!

You’re terrified because you know it all

Where I’ve been and where I can go..

You pushed me too far, and the edge scares you shitless..

And I really do believe that when death comes for you..

She’ll take you really, really slow

She’s MY angel, and she knows..

She knows!

And when they open the gates of Hell..

Because they will

You’ll just have to walk right in

and you will wait for me there..

If I can’t settle this in this life

I want the last battle to be among the flames..

Did you show me any mercy?

Did you ever give me a fair chance to fight back?

Empathy is the very thing you lack..

So expect nothing of it back!

So see ya in Hell..

They will open the gates wide open!

You’ll just have to walk right in..!

And if I’m not there to greet you, you just wait!

If I can’t settle this in THIS life

I want the last battle to be among the flames

Yeah, I want the last battle to be among the flames!!

Faen heller, jo flere ganger jeg prøver å slutte med de jævla sigarettene jo mer trang får jeg til å bare røyke meg i hjel.. «I didn’t smoke like a normal person, I smoked to die» sa Charlize Theron en gang og jeg er faktisk der er jeg redd. Hver gang jeg sprekker, blir jeg bare enda mer sulten på giften min, og hver gang jeg sprekker mister jeg mer og mer troen på at dette kommer jeg noen gang til å klare.

Men jeg VIL jo..

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Oversikt over salgene: De beste kuppene nå

Suget er bare så intenst vanskelig å holde ut!! Det verste er det det gjør med meg psykisk, jeg blir jo helt grønnsak i hodet av det.. Æsj altså!

Men i morgen (alltid i morgen, hæh..) prøver jeg igjen.. Åh, gruer meg. Gruer meg mest av alt til sprekken jeg føler på meg at jeg kommer til å gå på igjen, følelsen av at denne avhengigheten overstyrer min frie vilje og sunne fornuft totalt, følelsen av at denne demonen klarer jeg ikke å bekjempe.

Har meldt meg på nytt røykesluttkurs via Helsehuset igjen da, men det starter ikke før i april og jeg vil slutte nåååå.. Kunne gitt så mye for aldri å ha begynt.

Uansett, her er en låt om dritten jeg driver med.

This damn habit of mine..

I thought I could just play with the fire

Didn’t understand the way my brain is wired

I got chained so fast..

I’m handcuffed to these things

And I can’t let go!

My brain screams this is what I want

Black smoke down my lungs

I crave it more than air sometimes

It’s so damn patethic..

It’s so fucking dumb

But this is the habit I can’t seem to quit

This damn habit of mine..

How can one single puff feel so sublime

When I get my fix I don’t give a damn

A damn that it’s just stealing my time

Yeah, I was young and dumb

Steered away from coke at parties and heroin on the streets

And I only planned for this habit to last a couple of weeks

Guess this poison hit my weak spot

It’s been 20 fucking (!) years and I can’t stop

I can’t stop!

This damn habit of mine..

How can one single puff feel so sublime

When I get my fix I don’t give a damn

A damn that it’s just stealing my time

This damn damn habit of mine

I know I’m running out of time..

I gotta let go

I have to do without

But when I get my fix.. Ah, shit!

That stuff really hits

And I always knew this is hard to quit..

But I honestly thought I was bigger than this

This damn habit of mine..

This damn damn damn habit of mine..

Ok, so I’m not gonna pretend life has been easy

But anything else would have been kinda boring and taught me very little

So I guess all in all I’m kinda grateful for the battles I have fought

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Every hill I’ve climbed, every time I got knocked down..

I guess I kept the parts of me I’ve always loved the most after all..

Here’s to being forever in freestyle

Nothing set in stone and I’m fine with it!

Rolling with the punches and surfing the waves

Guess I wouldn’t have it any other way

I’ve doubted myself plenty

Thought I’d die before reaching twenty

There’s been enough challenges

I’ve had my share of enemies

Hell, I turned into my very worst one

But I’ve always kept my eyes on who I could become

I fucking love strong women, and I can finally say with confidence that I am one

Yeah, I am one!

Here’s to being forever in freestyle

Nothing set in stone and I’m fine with it!

I feel kinda bad for people always chasing the next big thing

I just roll with the punches and surf the waves

Guess I wouldn’t have it any other way

I wouldn’t have it any other way!

and you can call me whatever you like

Label me whatever you want..

Think of me as you please..

I’m not one for living on my knees

I’ve paved my way through many a hell

and some people really do not wish me well

But here I am, at 38- and I’m thriving

Ready to do so much more than merely just surviving

And the only plan I plan on sticking to is..

Forever in freestyle!

(I was just fishing for men.. Is this not how you do it..? Just kidding just kidding 😉)

You ruled this town back when I was born

24.12.87..

But these streets belongs to me now

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and with cold wings I’m coming..

I think I know just where you hide out

I know exactly what and who you hide behind

Your damn title that you think makes you a god..

Your little flock of sheeps, fools that let you be in control because they can’t think for themselves..

But you have grown older

and I have only grown stronger

The dragon baby is not a baby anymore..

But I still breathe fire

So burn..

I know what it is you want from me

You’ll never have any of it

I know who you want me to be become..

I’ll rather die than fulfill your fantasy!

I am not your personal Jesus doomed to forgive and forget..

I am the cold blade pressed against your neck

I am not your little victim..

I am the weapon!

I am the weapon..!

You think I’ll ever be under your control?

You think I’ll ever let this go?

You think you’re so smart, but you could never figure me out

The way I always knew exactly what you are

Stone cold psychopath..

Welcome to the aftermath!

And while you have grown older

I have only grown stronger

and I still spit fire..

and I guess you have burned ever since

I know what you want from me

You’ll never ever have it

I know who you want me to become

I’ll die before I fulfill your fantasy!

and it’s killing you, I know it does..

I know I do!

I’m the one who haunts you, I’m the one keeping you up at night..

I am not your personal Jesus doomed to forgive and forget..

I am the cold blade pressed against your neck

I am not your little victim..

I am the weapon

I am the weapon..!

I still breathe fire..

and we both know you’ll burn ‘till you die..

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

But everytime we speak I just want you to go on forever

Annonsørinnhold

Superkupp innen sport og friluft du gjør nå

I don’t want silence to interrupt

I just want you to keep talking

This is so strange to me

How you never drain me

How you just fill me up

So can you keep talking, keep talking

’Cuz I don’t feel like walking, walking away

Or smoking..

I don’t need any of my unhealthy habits

If you just talk to me

I forget your voice in between

Heck, I even forget what you look like

But every time we pick it up again it’s all so familiar

and I’m back to just wanting your company

The conversation that just flows so naturally

It feels weird walking away

and this is so, so strange to me

How you never drain me

You just fill me up

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you..

I think it’s just you

and I just want you to..

Keep talking, keep talking

I don’t feel like walking, walking away

I leave my damn cigarettes at home

I travel across town

Freeze to death on bus stops at night

and I’m so cool with it

I just want you to..

I just need you to..

Can you just talk to me

Just talk to me

You make me wet you know

The words that comes out of your mouth so effortlessly

Turns into a damn river between my legs

If we move it somewhere else

I just want you to keep talking

(And moan, and talk, and moan)

I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

So anything but boring

Or maybe boring is just way more fun than I thought it was

I’m not the right person to tell if something is normal or not..

I just enjoy it

I just enjoy you

and all I want

All I need

I just want you to keep talking

Can you just talk to me

Do you need to sleep?

Do you have to work?

Do you really gotta be somewhere else?

I know you do, it’s just..

Can you just talk to me

And this is so strange to me

Mostly talking to myself for all these years

But I just need you to

I just want you to..

Can you just talk to me

Can you just talk to me?

Cuz when you do, I don’t really need to be anywhere else

Not even in my own head

And you deserve a reward for that, I guess

For taking my mind off my mind..

And I for sure can’t do that.

and I don’t know what it is

I think it’s just you

I think it’s just you..

Ok, so..

Maybe I jump the gun here

(can’t help it, some parts of me are trigger-happy)

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But to be honest there’s parts of me I’ve believed to be dead

And now I can’t get it out of my head..

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

(Just let me do it!)

Ok, so..

Maybe it’s too soon to talk about it

and maybe I should think about it some more

It’s not like I’ve never made mistakes before

But all I want is to jump the fucking gun

I just can’t get it out of my head

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way..

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

(You gotta let me do it..)

I can do without a lot

And I have..

Seems I’ve lived a thousand years in loneliness

and now I can’t even finish on my own

And it’s all because..

’

’Cuz all I can think about

All I can focus on..

Ah, this makes me go nuts

but in a good way..

I’m dripping wet and it ain’t from sweat

All I can think about..

It’s all I can think about!

Aah!