Corazón

I thought I heard you say

This time around you’d stay

Maybe it was just me being crazy again..

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You mean so much to me

But you don’t seem to care

Even when I’m shouting in your face

It’s like I’m not even there

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It ain’t you it’s me

Asking for too much, probably

Should learn how to not give a fuck

‘Cuz you’re so above me I can’t reach you

And maybe me thinkin’ I might have a shot

Is nothin’ but a part of my crazy plot

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I want you so bad

Even if you’ll never want me back

I wish you’d tell me point blank

So I’d stop obsessing over something I’ve never had

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At some point you have to step up and crush my heart

So I can go back to start

Get my head sorted out

Stop dreaming about

..You ‘n’ me in some scene

Oh, but it’s such a wonderful dream..

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It ain’t you it’s me

I’m sorry

You’re all I can think about

Don’t worry

I’ll get my head sorted out

Stop dreaming about..

Oh but it’s such a wonderful dream

Alt jeg vet

Må lære meg å holde pusten

under bølgene som skyller over meg

Lære meg å leve med

de skarpe kantene på livet som skjærer inn i huden min

Venne meg til synet av blod

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Når alt er sagt og gjort

står bare håpløsheten igjen

På dette tidspunktet

har den blitt en gammel venn

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Kanskje er jeg dum

som bevarte håpet så lenge

Holdt det hellig

Holdt på troen

«Ting vil løse seg til slutt»

sa jeg og trodde mine ord

Nå tror jeg ikke lenger

Vet bare hvordan det ender

At jeg skal bli til jord

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Ingen hjelpende hånd

kan nå meg lenger

Ingen trøstende ord går fra øret til hjernen

Alt jeg vet er at det gjør faen så vondt

å klamre seg fast til et liv man begynner å lure på om man egentlig vil ha

Alt jeg vet..

Jeg vet så mye om hat og forakt

Og så alt for lite om kjærlighet

Complicated game

I was her, and she was me

I was chained but she was free

I was blind, she could see

I was nothing, she was everything I wanted to be

And yet.. I was her.. and she..was me..

Chained but free.. Blind but can see.. Me versus me.

Bad girls club

He says I’m a bad girl

For being so high I could touch the ceiling

For getting so drunk

I’m barely seeing

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He thinks I’m a bad girl

For messin’ with his heart

He thinks I’m a bad girl

For tearing it apart

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He says I’m a bad girl

Sure loves to spank me

He says I’m a bad girl

Then he thanks me

For being such a bad girl

Bad girl, nah

I’m just a sad girl

Livin’ in a bad world

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He thinks I’m a bad girl

For fucking all his friends

He thinks I’m a bad girl

That’s how it always ends

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‘Cuz I’m a bad girl

All the boys think I’m a bad girl

Nah..

I’m just a sad girl

Livin’ in a bad world

Livin’ in a bad world, oh

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I used to be a good girl

But my heart got tainted

and my body invaded

This world is merciless on the good girls

So I joined the bad girls club

Bad girl, now I’m labeled a bad girl

Bad girl, nah

I’m just a sad girl

Living in a bad world

Oh..

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It’s a bad, bad world

So you can call me a bad girl

That’s the only way to fit into a bad world

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Bad girl

Bad, bad girl..

Mea culpa

Whip, whip, whip your skin

Like you’d comitted a deadly sin

Whip, whip, whip!

Until you bleed from within

My fault, it’s always my fault

I am the lightning and the thunderbolt

Rip, rip, rip your flesh

Pour salt in the wounds

while they are still fresh

Rip, rip, rip!

Until you hit your bones

What does not kill you..

Makes you wish it did

My fault, it’s always my fault

I keep track of my sins locked up in a vault

How much longer must I repent

Like I was in the garden of Eden in the shape of a serpent

Kick, kick, kick yourself in the teeth

Kick kick kick!

Until you break your feet

What doesn’t kill you

Makes you wish it did

My bad, it’s always my bad

I made him mad, I made her sad

My bad, always my bad

What doesn’t kill you

Makes you wish it had

Whiskey lips, honey tongue

Come back to me, darling.

I didn’t mean to say those words outloud

It’s just that your silence

makes me want to scream and shout

You know I’m a bad girl at heart

Only to you do I remain devout

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I miss your whiskey lips

and your honey tongue

I miss your finger tips

running down my spine

What are you waiting for

We’re running out of time

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Don’t you ever tell me

I’m crazy when I say I love you

I could be anything you want me to be

But now you keep me from being free..

And at some point my feelings will turn sour

and your magic will lose its power

And I will break free from the chains

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Can you tell me what will remain?

When love is no more, and I will never feel the same

Don’t smile at me like everything is fine

I can’t be yours if you’re not mine

I’m trying to tell you, darling

You ran out of time

Done my time in hell

I'm sick of this bloody mess

Always cutting myself on the pieces

of the life I had before

Wishing you'd never slept in my bed

That I'd never let you in the door

Now you haunt my head

I'm sick of always feeling torn

Between a bitter past and no glimpse of a future

Wishing I'd been more careful with my battles

I know failures all too well

and I've never seen heaven

but I've certainly done my time in hell

In spite of this life, I’m still alive

I was the throbbing vein, you were my sweet sweet heroin

My darling medicine

leaving a bitter taste on my lips

and your blood stained my fingertips

as you left bruises on my hips

God knows I loved you

 

In spite of this life, I’m still alive

Am I? Am I..?

In spite of this life, I’m still alive

It only feels like I’m dead inside

 

I was the corrupt queen, you were my merciless king

Only without you was I able to sing

 Leaving me with nothing but a string

to stitch my broken heart back together

And even after all these years

not one of them was wasted tears..

And I still love you

 

In spite of this life, I’m still alive

Am I? Am I..?

In spite of this life, I’m still alive

It only feels like I’m dead inside

 

I buried my heart in Båtsfjord

I can smell a world on fire

Overcrowded and predicted to succumb

but she was forged by flames

and lava sleeps in her womb

She’s the lovechild of the Universe

She’s running out of patience and only time will tell

if mankind has a home here or if we will be buried in her tomb

She granted us paradise, and in return we ask for hell

 

Stick your finger in the earth, can you feel Gaia pulsating?

She’s always watching..

Oh no, she’s not the one dying.

She can see under water.

She has spies in the air.

Even the Moon and the Sun has sworn-

to aid her in despair.

She is the child of their love affair..

 

 

 

Nerves are snapping like overstrung strings

There’s a beast out there in the night, spreading enormous wings

We never learn, do we..

Pay attention to the little things

and it was too late

Long ago

 

 

I buried my heart

Next to my father

Six feet under frozen ground

But I don’t get to die until it’s over

No

I don’t get to die before it’s over

 

I’ve sworn to protect her

against all forces that does not respect her

I don’t pledge allegiance to Christianity or Islam

I was chosen by the stars, I’m the daughter of a shamaan

 

I can smell a world on fire

The hourglass was flipped and soon

It will empty, grain by grain

We are all here on her mercy

She will decide

If we remain

‘Gator skin

 

 

I got skin like an alligator

I don’t scar easily

But you got me in a chokehold

You put a fist down my throat

Even wild beasts can get caught

and with your arm around my neck;

water weigh me down

Even predators got a weak spot,

and even alligators can drown