Foolish heart

Stop hoping foolish heart
You’ve been set up to lose from the start..

He doesn’t feel the way about you as you do about him
He doesn’t care if you sink or swim

Stop hoping, foolish heart
He does not count each passing second you’ve been apart..

He sleeps safe and sound at night
He’s not afraid of the light
He could never comprehend
why you are so damaged.

He does not care that you are twisting and turning
And how every part of you is burning
From desire and yearning
After the scent of his skin
And the touch of his hand..
He will never be able to understand

Stop hoping, foolish heart
Or keep breaking piece by piece
Until you decease..

 

I’ll keep breaking..
I don’t care if I’m aching
Or that he is not mine for the taking
I love who I love, no matter the cost
I’ll be lonely if I must, it’s nothing new..
I may love in vain, but atleast it’s a love that’s true..

I’ll wait, I’ll wait all my life for you.

 

Quid pro quo

 

Heard your heart has healed, honey..

Don?t forget who broke it first

I am the vampire lurking in the night

And only your blood can quench my thirst

 

Did you erase me completely?

See, I don’t think you can

I never did anything discreetly

Was real good at making you feel like a man

 

My door is never open

But you can kick it in at any time

I still get in that demonic mood now and then..

and I miss my old partner in crime

 

 

I’m still waiting..

It’s misery, it’s poetry, it’s blasphemy

I feel so ugly

 I don’t think you understand.

Wish I was more of a woman

Or maybe that you were less of a man.

 

I wish I could say “Nobody will ever love you like I can”

I wish I could believe in madness all the time

So when other people cut their knives in my back

I could still breathe just fine

 

I jumped from a bridge once and broke every bone in my damn body

It still didn’t hurt as much as all the words you left unsaid

Do you not understand you have to finish this

My wounds are open and you hold the needle and thread…

 

I wish I could say “I know what the fuck I’m doing”

I wish I could yell “I don’t need anyone else”

That I could live in a damn castle I built

in my own head, a place where I’m free from the guilt.

 

Most of all I wish it was over

A letter to my lover

I swear I’d get over it if I could
And everybody tells me I should
But how do you bury the skeletons
in your closet
When you lack the bones?
I’m not upset
Just wish I knew..
Was hoping you’d tell..
Dreaming of living in a world
Where I could count on you

You always leave me in a dump
Feels like I’m America and you’re my Donald Trump..
You fuck me up, babe

 

Need you now

I need you now 

Not like some damn hero

Not like a knight in shining armour

I need my fucking savage.

Archangel

He looks like an angel
But he was made in hell

And like feathers, his fingers run down my skin
Then why do you make me bleed babe
I’ll confess, he is my sin
But when the devil is knocking..
I let him in

I don’t get much sleep when he stays the night
And when he’s not around
I am walking on the walls

Buildt my heart like a battleship
Solid, unbreakable..
But he just came and torpedoed it

But I would die for him, and he knows it..
And he will be
The death of me, I know.

But he’s so worth it, and I can not let him go.

 

 

Kill your erection

You let me chase my own tail- in a race,

you never intended for me to win

And you let me huff and puff at every door-

not once did you let me in.

 

You amplified my fears, shot the arrow straight into my wounds-

Kept me walking, bleeding on glass, as long as I was obeying your rules.

You gave me affection, only when I needed it the least-

only so you could turn on me

all those moments when I really was weak.

 

But a weight has been lifted from my shoulders

Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.

And there is revenge in knowing

You will selfdestruct all on your own.

 

You said you had my back, and then you stabbed it

Guess it had to break, for me to learn.

And if there is any love in you at all

it’s a love I no longer have a wish to earn.

 

And a weight has been lifted from my shoulders

Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.

And there is revenge in knowing

that now you know, that it is me who is strong-

and it’s been me, all along.

 

It was never real, none of the pages in our history

Your words, your gentlest touch, it was always all hypocrisy-

The love you think you have for me..

It’s useless and worthless, and now that I can see that..

It is I who have set myself free.

And you are left- playing the only role in your parody.

 

And a weight has been lifted from my shoulders

Knowing I don’t have to forgive, I can just let you go.

And there is revenge in knowing

Unless you change, you’re doomed to die alone.

sin corazón

 

You underestimate me
When I’m on my knees
You confuse this with love
How I hate that disease..

 

And all your friends tell you how I played them
Just for turning them down with a smile.
And now you think you’re something special
It was funny for a while.

 

But I chew my leg off when I’m captured

 

Like a god to a fool
The master to his servant..
You’ll be my king for the night
But you’re nothing but a tool
I know the prize to pay for being dumb
and it is worthless

Real love takes time

But 5 minutes in and I’m feeling restless
I might just be heartless

Life has made me numb

All my illusions, broken like a shattered mirror

I can not feel you

But I enjoy having you under my thumb