If you can hear me now
(I know you can’t but I keep talking)
Wherever you are
I am asking you just this one thing
Be my leading star
I am so deeply wounded but I keep walking
But I fear I’m lost
I’m scared and I need direction
Or just a hand to hold
Can you reach me from the dead
If I picture you in my head
But I can’t recall your voice..
I can’t speak the words you used
To soothe me when my nerves got raw
I fear them snapping
It’s always happening
I can’t control my madness
And I can’t escape the feeling of sadness
It’s always there, deep in my heart
Sometimes I think it’s been there since the start
It’s so familiar, this pain
Maybe that’s why I sometimes have to go insane
I can’t carry this darkness
And I don’t know how to let it go..
If you can hear me!
Reach me from the other side
Give me a sign
I get so lonely in this world without you
No one understands me like you did
No one can take me for all the ugly things that I am
I need you to keep on loving me
Because I don’t know if I can
I don’t know if I can..
I am so fucking complicated,
I am more complex than I can understand..
If you can hear me now
(I know you can’t but I keep talking)
Wherever you are
I am asking you just this one thing
Be my leading star
I am so deeply wounded but I keep walking
But I fear I’m lost
I’m scared and I need direction..
You can’t hear me
I know I’m asking too much
I know I am all alone in this darkness
I know there’s no way to get in touch
You sleep forever where I buried you
Safe in death, and one day I’ll be too
But I’ll keep walking
It’s what you’d want me to do
And if you could, you would
I know…
I just miss you so
I miss you so
