Your skin, my sin

Your skin, my sin
Oh lord forgive me, ’cause I still
Love him

I can’t forget.
How hard I’ve tried!
I sleep by myself and I don’t wanna know who’s creeping up with you tonight 
I can’t help but wonder
If all your feelings for me have died
Oh lord erase him for me
You know that I have tried

Your touch, my death
I loved you with my mouth first
Maybe that’s why I’m out of breath
Your face, I can’t replace..
Your hands speak the language of my body
You are the gasoline that lights me on fire
You are the embodiment of my desire

Only you could ever penetrate my mind..
You were the greatest treasure I ever stumbled upon
I had you for a moment then you were gone
Now your someone else’s treasure to find..

Oh forgive me lord
I know he was never really mine
And I’ll pay my dues in hell for him
For what is left of my time

Your skin, my sin
Lord it was worth it, loving him

Swim away from me

I was drowning in a dark and bottomless ocean

In my mind we’d all survive

but some of us never learned how to swim  

and some just long to sink

 

I could feel the sharks circling around my feet

In my mind thoughts were spinning..

There is no heaven above us

and no hell underneath

 

And there is such beauty in that

It’s such a big relief

I am nothing but the words I speak

and even my bones will turn to dust

Do you feel fear towards death..?

 ‘Cause all I feel is a starving lust  

 

For silence, and only silence

For what is truly peace

So let me drown in waters deep

I am ready for my release

Darkest sheep

 

I am the bad seed  

The darkest sheep

I do the worst deeds

To fulfill my wicked needs

 

Oh, but am I incomplete- 

or just full of shit

Tell me please..

I can take it

 

I am always there for you to blame

The puzzle that won’t fit into your “perfect” game

I am the skeleton in your closet

I’m the reason you can’t close it  

 

If I do a 180..

Turn my life ’round would you still hate me?

I have this feeling I’ll never measure up  

Maybe that’s why I keep fucking up  

 

Oh but is there anything about me you could love at all?

I’ll selfdestruct if that’s what you want..  

In fact I’ve already jumped  

Now I’m in freefall  

 

Don’t you dare shed a single tear on me

I choose to remember, and you are not allowed to forget

 

It’s a story with no beginning and no end

Where the villain and the hero is one and the same

It’s a burning lust hidden in someone elses past

It’s a future made of dust and a love that couldn’t last

 

You remember my name

 

It’s a body reeking of fear and a mind filled with mines

It’s a place you’d never want to return to

Where reality gets blurry lines and all your worst enemies aligns

And they won’t stop the torture until both soul and body resigns..

 

You remember my face

 

It’s a corridor with numbered doors

Soulless eyes and brutal hands

It’s calling out for help. But you are speaking in a language

That no one understands

 

You remember my voice

 

The body can endure what kills the spritit

and hell is a room with a bed and chains

Strapped so tight, never ending pains

Being forced to forgive and forget

And hear them laugh because you make no threat

 

You remember and I will never let you forget

 

Foolish heart

Stop hoping foolish heart
You’ve been set up to lose from the start..

He doesn’t feel the way about you as you do about him
He doesn’t care if you sink or swim

Stop hoping, foolish heart
He does not count each passing second you’ve been apart..

He sleeps safe and sound at night
He’s not afraid of the light
He could never comprehend
why you are so damaged.

He does not care that you are twisting and turning
And how every part of you is burning
From desire and yearning
After the scent of his skin
And the touch of his hand..
He will never be able to understand

Stop hoping, foolish heart
Or keep breaking piece by piece
Until you decease..

 

I’ll keep breaking..
I don’t care if I’m aching
Or that he is not mine for the taking
I love who I love, no matter the cost
I’ll be lonely if I must, it’s nothing new..
I may love in vain, but atleast it’s a love that’s true..

I’ll wait, I’ll wait all my life for you.

 

Quid pro quo

 

Heard your heart has healed, honey..

Don?t forget who broke it first

I am the vampire lurking in the night

And only your blood can quench my thirst

 

Did you erase me completely?

See, I don’t think you can

I never did anything discreetly

Was real good at making you feel like a man

 

My door is never open

But you can kick it in at any time

I still get in that demonic mood now and then..

and I miss my old partner in crime

 

 

I’m still waiting..

It’s misery, it’s poetry, it’s blasphemy

I feel so ugly

 I don’t think you understand.

Wish I was more of a woman

Or maybe that you were less of a man.

 

I wish I could say “Nobody will ever love you like I can”

I wish I could believe in madness all the time

So when other people cut their knives in my back

I could still breathe just fine

 

I jumped from a bridge once and broke every bone in my damn body

It still didn’t hurt as much as all the words you left unsaid

Do you not understand you have to finish this

My wounds are open and you hold the needle and thread…

 

I wish I could say “I know what the fuck I’m doing”

I wish I could yell “I don’t need anyone else”

That I could live in a damn castle I built

in my own head, a place where I’m free from the guilt.

 

Most of all I wish it was over

A letter to my lover

I swear I’d get over it if I could
And everybody tells me I should
But how do you bury the skeletons
in your closet
When you lack the bones?
I’m not upset
Just wish I knew..
Was hoping you’d tell..
Dreaming of living in a world
Where I could count on you

You always leave me in a dump
Feels like I’m America and you’re my Donald Trump..
You fuck me up, babe

 

Need you now

I need you now 

Not like some damn hero

Not like a knight in shining armour

I need my fucking savage.

Archangel

He looks like an angel
But he was made in hell

And like feathers, his fingers run down my skin
Then why do you make me bleed babe
I’ll confess, he is my sin
But when the devil is knocking..
I let him in

I don’t get much sleep when he stays the night
And when he’s not around
I am walking on the walls

Buildt my heart like a battleship
Solid, unbreakable..
But he just came and torpedoed it

But I would die for him, and he knows it..
And he will be
The death of me, I know.

But he’s so worth it, and I can not let him go.