Breathe again

Remind me one more time

why we’re not on speaking terms

and why we can’t negotiate

or wave a white flag

Tell me one more time

why I sleep alone on thorns

These terms turns my Halo to horns

 

Oh what I’d give

For you to just hold me

Is it true that all you wanted

was to control me

Say it isn’t so

God I just need answers

I just gotta know

 

Remind me one more time

Why we can’t talk this out

Why we can’t just fuck through it

Or wave a white flag

God knows, we still have enemies

But tell me why we can’t be allies

and why you can’t stick around in my life

 

Oh what I’d give

For you to just hold me

Fuck me through this

Is it true all you wanted

was to control me

Say it ain’t so

Guess only the devil knows

 

No one will ever love you like me

No one can fuck you like me

Oh, say it’s really so

I’m desperate now and it shows

I guess only the devil truly knows

 

Talk me through this

Fuck me through this

Talk me through this

Fuck fuck fuck me through this

Just talk to me

Just come back inside of me

So I can breathe again

Breathe again

Breathe again..

 

 

Life goes on

All my life

Flashing before my eyes

Dry my tears

Silence my fears

Life goes, goes on

Yeah, life goes on

 

All these years spent in fear

You know the words I want to hear

But you stay silent, it’s okay

Cuz life goes on, goes on

Life goes on and it goes my way

 

Hallelujah, mama I’m home

Soon my fears are dead and gone

I did it all, and I did it alone

Life goes on, goes on

Yeah life goes on and it goes my way

 

 

Like you better when you’re gone (don’t like you at all)

They all said it, so I can’t say I wasn’t warned

You came with a tail, and you came horned

 

I can’t believe I was the one

Keeping you on a throne

I like you better when you’re gone

Yeah, I like you better when you’re gone

 

Now I see clearly what I guess I’ve always known

That you are bad from the skin to the bone

I’m not even gonna talk about that micro-dick

Or the fact that you are thick as a brick

Every word you say, makes my brain upset

How the fuck did this play out for as long as it did

Every time I was in the same room as you, is a moment I regret

 

Why should I be the one

Keeping you on a throne

I like you better when you’re gone

I like you better when you’re gone

Yeah, I like you better when you’re gone

 

I hope someone takes karma in their own hands

and take a hit in those weak knee-caps and make you piss your pants

All your shitty ass friends, that you stay loyal to

One day, they’ll all turn on you

I hope you lose the rest of your hair

That covers up the brain that ain’t even there

 

I can’t believe I’ve been around

The worst piece of shit in town

Now I know just how low you go

And if you ever show up again, I’m just letting you know

I might just take karma in my own hands

Yeah I might just take karma in my own hands

 

Why should I be the one

Yeah, why should I be the one

I’m out, I’m out and I’m never coming back

Are you even human, from everything that you lack

I like you better when you’re gone

I like you better when you’re gone

 

Ah, let’s just call it what it is

You stoop so low, you look so small

And now the truth is

I don’t like you at all

No I don’t like you at all

 

 

 

Redemption or revenge

I wouldn’t be here if I had no goals

wouldn’t be here if I filled no roles

would not be here

If I could not finally fill in all the plot holes

I can not blame ya

Honey, I’m a sinner too

but these crimes I was forced through

they did not happen to you

 

Redemption or revenge

I’ll grab what I can

And this final battle-cry

might just mean the end of man

 

Oh this is a nasty story

Don’t miss the deadline

 

 

Necromancer

I’m calling on the dead

who live on inside my head

If I had to choose

I’d join ranks with you instead

I’d join ranks with you instead

And if your spirit is free

then walk behind me now

Me and my army of the walking dead

So bring a gun to my head

My fucking head..

I am the walking dead

 

 

Save yourself

Happy birthday to me

and the woman I am

that I wanted to be

I’m not perfect, no

Not a finalist in your fucked up beauty-show

It’s okay tho

’cuz now I know

 

24.12.1987

The day I gave up on your heaven

I burned in hell

But damn I handled it well

And now I see

I created just the beast I wanted to be

 

Nah, I ain’t your damned Messiah

So save yourself

Save yourself

Like I did

Like I do

 

That’s my final words, that’s the last line

I am imperfectly doin’ fine

So save yourself

Like I did

Like I do

Here’s the last line

I ain’t gonna fuck you

 

Gods, if you listen: Close the gates to heaven

I know you remember the date, bitch

24.12.1987

 

Den fineste julegaven jeg kom på ❤️

Ville bare stikke innom her en siste gang før i morgen, og ønske GOD JUL (Ja, har sagt det før men jeg elsker jul 😁)..

 

Min personlige mening; men musikk er det beste vi mennesker har funnet opp, så derfor tenkte jeg at den fineste gaven jeg kan gi de av dere som kikket innom her, er musikktips.. Så her er noen av sangene som fikk meg gjennom 2022. Smaken er som kjent som baken, jeg synes selvsagt selv at jeg har goood musikksmak, men.. 😉

In Flames- Stay with me

In Flames- Save me

Within Temptation- Mercy mirror

Within Temptation- The whole world is watching

Parkway Drive- Vice grip

Parkway Drive- The greatest fear

Annisokay- Time

NF- Hate myself

Ad Infinitum- Unstoppable

Xavier Rudd- Spirit bird

Eminem- Not afraid

Hillsong United- Oceans

Bethel music- Raise a Hallelujah

Linkin Park- Castle of glass

Andra Day- Rise up

Tom MacDonald- Fake woke

 

With love ❤️

 

As long as you are safe (I’m okay)

Til Marte min ❤️

 

 

Oh love, with a heavy head

I’m sorry for the time I spent like I was dead

I just need you to know

It’s alright to slow down

I can see the lifeguards

I promise you won’t drown

 

As long as you are safe

And now you are, you are

I’ll sleep tonight, I swear

As long as you are safe, I’m okay

and now I can live without fear

 

Oh love, the sorrow you have carried

I could not cry your tears for you

I just want you to know

Let them flow, they heal

and believe me when I say

I will handle everything that you feel

Here’s my hand in written words

Hold it, I won’t let go

 

As long as you are safe

And now you are, you are

I’ll sleep tonight, I swear

As long as you are safe, I’m okay

and now I can live without fear

Because believe me, you will be okay

 

Oh love, I am yours

By fate, by blood, by chance, by luck, by choice

I will always side with you

Listen to my voice:

Know that as long as you are safe

I will be okay

Believe me, you know the way..

Home is where the heart is

 

Here’s my hand, in written words

I always had yours, now it’s my turn

I will not let go

We will be okay

 

 

 

Love will guide us through

Jeg ville bare gi et livstegn til dere som er innom her av og til, og si I’m okay 🤗

 

Teller ned til jul sammen med nevøen min, og har mye kvalitetstid med familien- som jeg har savnet, men jeg må ta min del av ansvaret her, når jeg har hatt en tendens til å falle inn i min egen boble med dårlig selvtillit og negative tanker om meg selv. Ikke mer av det i hvert fall!

 

Jeg skjønner jo nå at for meg betyr det ikke en dritt å oppnå en fancy tittel som lege, advokat eller kjendis- de titlene som betyr mest er de jeg allerede har: Datter, søster, søskenbarn, tante ❤️ Herregud så glad jeg er i triben min..

 

Jeg har en kreativ pause nå, fordi jeg ikke har behov for å tømme meg gjennom tekst nå. Men en strofe som går igjennom hodet mitt er:

 

For a while, hate was my fuel..

But love, love will ALWAYS be my religion.

 

Ønsker alle en magisk jul, og en spesiell takk til dere som har tatt dere tid til å legge igjen kommentarer her inne- dere har gitt meg trøst, støtte, motivasjon, og ikke minst håp, fordi dere er snille mennesker, og verden har så godt av dere.

 

Klem fra meg ❤️