Hot & cold

Sorry not sorry..

 

So you’re back with your boner

Want me to pretend we’re Marge and Homer

Tell me I’m a perfect ten

Then the next day you don’t wanna see me again

 

Oh, this bad boy, bad boy

Wants me as his own toy, own toy

But I can no longer enjoy

I don’t really matter, no

Hot and cold, hot and cold

Those hands, all they know is a chokehold

 

Yeah, I’ve done stupid shit

But I am so over it

Tell me sweet lies in my ear

Knows all the bullshit a woman wants to hear

Still I know so well, if I let ya near

Baby, it’s crystal clear

You just wanna know you can still get inside me

If I let you in, I give it a day-

Then you’ll disappear

 

Ah, this bad boy, bad boy

Give him a good thing he can destroy

But I can no longer enjoy

I know I don’t really matter, no

Hot and cold, hot and cold

Those damn hands, ah!

All they know is a chokehold

 

Lovebombing me like Hiroshima

Ignoring me for months, then battle for my heart like Iwo Jima

Want me to welcome him with open legs

Acts like he wants to fertilize my damn eggs

 

This bad boy, bad boy

Now he got it in his head I’m his fav toy

How am I supposed to enjoy

I never mattered, no

Hot and cold, hot and cold

Those damn hands, ah!

All they know is a chokehold

 

 

 

Fairytale of lies

Why does it feel like it’s never ending

The pain is still throbbing somewhere under my skin

I wish I could go numb and cold

I wish I could go back in time

Erase the day I met you

Maybe you don’t understand, but you raped my fucking mind

My brain no longer feels like it’s mine

 

I’d tell you whatever it is you want to hear

I just don’t understand what you want

I’ve given up everything

And still you don’t care

 

All these years I spent in vain,spinning a fairytale of lies

When it comes down to it, I still can’t tell what is hiding behind your eyes

And my own brain seems to go insane

Each time I get too close to the truth

It really hurts, how these violent turns

Stole so many years of my youth

 

I don’t like myself anymore

But the sad truth is

I wasn’t that much better before

Just better at lying I guess

Well I can’t lie no more

I’ve never felt more sure

I see myself for exactly what I am

I can’t lie no more

Problem is, you can

 

Shit, you’re still so pretty

That just ain’t me

And that will never be me

You’ve seen me at my worst, you know just how ugly I can get

And I’ve seen it too, so there goes my self respect

I tried so hard to change, but it lead me nowhere

All the demons in my head, they’re still there

 

I’ll never know what’s hiding behind your eyes

All I know, is I have to end this fairytale of lies

 

 

 

 

Desire, desire

You spin me right outta control

After all this time, I still haven’t figured it out

In this wicked game you play

What the fuck is your role

You act like my saviour

But you broke my heart, and then you crushed my soul

 

Desire, desire

Sleeping on cloud nine

Wake up on barbed wire

 

Your drugs ain’t doing it for me

You let me out at last, but I’m still not free

I can’t believe how I brainwashed myself into thinking that you and I was ment to be

How I told myself we were destiny

More like you’re the death of me..

 

Desire, desire

I used to be this untouchable icequeen

Now every inch of me is on fucking fire

 

All in all, I was just a blip on your radar

You’re the meteor that wiped out my world

My touch didn’t leave a single mark on you

Your hands left such a scar

And I can’t seem to erase you from my mind

The answers you hide from me

are impossible to find

 

Desire, desire

Sleeping on cloud nine with him

Waking up alone on barbed wire

 

How did you get this deep under my skin

I don’t recall ever inviting you in

Should blow my brain out

Paint the wall red

Sometimes I think that’s the only trick

To get you outta my head

My head..

 

Desire, desire..

Got my heart tangled up in barbed wire

I don’t know which fate is worse

Between feeling nothing at all

Or like every heartbeat hurts

 

 

 

A monster who was once a man

You said «No one will ever love you again.

You can’t trust anyone, least of all your brain»

I ripped my heart out of its cage

And threw it right into your spiteful face

I’d rather love a ghost

Than a monster who was once a man

You did not have much faith in me

And I reckon you thought I’d just die

I’m still alive

You didn’t believe that I could do this alone

Well, you were wrong..

I can.

🎵

And I will die one day, that’s for sure

But not because of you

There IS a cure

I’m erasing every memory

Just like I sacrificed my sanity..

Of all the people in the world you’d know

🎵

You are dead to me

Dead to me..

If I repeat it, will you stay in my mental cemetery

I will die one day

But you will not!

Be the death of me

🎵

You shine in the spotlight

Maybe that’s why I prefer the darkness

And I’ll rather live fucking cold and heartless

Than love a monster

Who was once a man

🎵

Here I go, no heart, no mercy

Your pretty face can’t seem to face me

I choke every time you embrace me

You want me dead

All I want is to keep you out of my head

Your words have power!

Your actions too, you messed me up beyond measure

Your chokehold on me, now it’s over

I’ve fought so hard for closure

Let me, let me go

Keep the filthy truth to yourself,

I no longer want to know

🎵

You better hope the table doesn’t turn

If your world ever catches on fire

Oh, I’ll make damn sure that you burn

And I’d rather love a ghost

Than the one that hurt me the most

A monster who was once a man..

You said I couldn’t do this alone

Well, I can

 

 

Ain’t worth the hurt

Got me crawling in my skin

Wondering why feelings are so hard to show

Thinking ‘bout who’s gonna take my spot now

I don’t wanna know

Yeah, I’m sure you’ll enjoy

All this time, all I was..

Was your toy

 

At the bottom of the bottle, here we go

Turned out such a shit-show

Coulda bitten my poisonous tongue off,

guess I should have

Now I’m the toxic one

Who knew you’d turn out the good guy

Guess I’m the fucking worst then

I’m not wondering why I’m sleeping alone

 

Never tried to play you

Was just protecting my heart

Somehow that made me betray you

Tears down your cheek like I’m even worth it

Fuck, I was never gonna do this again

Back and forth, from enemy to friend

Could never make my mind up

No wonder now you’re fed up

One time is a slip, two times a fuck-up

Drama, don’t want it

Somehow still, I’m bound to blow up

Temper, temper..

Thought I was too cold to care

Now my nuclear bomb is poisoning the atmosphere

 

Didn’t know I was this dysfunctional

Didn’t mean for this shit to get personal

It was supposed to be fun

Now I’m staring down the barrel of the gun

and there’s a bullet in your chest

Fuck me, fucking you, fucking us both over

I’m sorry…

 

Ah, I’m just a toy

So play me, please

It’s all I’m good for

It’s all I’m worth

Trust me when I say this

I ain’t worth the hurt

 

At the bottom of the sea

 


I think I’ve lost the sight of shore

It’s happened many times before

Feels like the water pulls me down

I’m not afraid anymore

I am ready to subdue to the ocean

So I fill my lungs and drown

 

And if you look for me

I’ll be at the bottom of the sea

 

I’m just a sinking ship, I know

And you got time to let me go

 

Love felt so good when I was young

Like honey drops on my tongue

I didn’t know how it could hurt

Or how your heart can torture you

When it’s been dragged through the dirt

 

So I said to myself

«I’ll build my heart just like a battleship»

But there is an armada out there

Ready to torpedo it

 

And now I’m slowly turning blue

There’s a graveyeard down there, waiting

And I know that it’s long due

So I sink all the way to the bottom

It’s not a tragedy, no, it is destiny

I was never ment for great things

I am just shark baiting

 

I’m just a sinking ship, I know

And you still got time to let me go

I’m just..

A sinking ship, I know

And you still got time to let me go

Let me go

 

 

 

Cannibal BBQ (what this mouth do)

Freestyle in my sleep, freestyle without a beat 😈

 

Heard you say «what that mouth do»

Well let me tell you:

Might just get hungry and eat you

(I’m a fullblown carnivore)

Welcome to the cannibal barbeque

(I’ll roast you)

How’s that for a whore

Guess you should have paid me more

🎵

Be real careful what you say behind my back

I might just make you say it to my face

I got the balls you seem to lack

There’s enough assholes among the human race

Ain’t nobody gonna miss you if you disappear without a trace

🎵

Oh I just love it when they talk shit

Get to test just how far I can spit

Keep on talking smack

Didn’t grow this Jaws-sized mouth for nothing

Just entered your kiddy pool and I bite back

Talking like a big dog, huh

To me you’re just a bite-sized snack

🎵

Oh I’ll show you what this mouth do

Welcome to my cannibal barbeque

Chop, chop little dude

Your roasted dick is on the menu

 

Remission / Remorse

»THERE’S 3 SIDES OF EVERY STORY: YOURS, MINE AND THE WHOLE DAMN TRUTH..»


Two songs, one case.

 

[Remission]

You have a part of me
I can do without
I’d rather bleed than cry actual tears
Over these messed up affairs

You talked smack, I heard it, you bite, I spit back. What happened to your cojones, is this how you attack? You did me dirty, I gave it all I had. Put me on a pedestal, cut it down and watched me fall, now word is you hate me- Who even cares..?

You quit, I lost my wit.. I’m so sick of this skit, how we were closed knit then we split. Blink of an eye, still you can’t tell me why..
Who even cares..? Used to dream about you, now you haunt me in my nightmares. All these lies through your perfect teeth, not one of ‘em was true. So damn you, fuck off, and I hope I haunt your nightmares too.

 

 

[Remorse]

Said I hope you choke on your coke

Like your issues were some kind of joke

I know just how deep your wounds really go

But you cut me loose

That was such a blow

to my fragile ego

 

I’m sorry for wherever it was I fucked up

I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough

You truly were one of a kind you know

And I don’t have a backup

 

Got under your bestfriend just to get over you

Can’t believe the messed up shit that I do

No wonder you doubt it was true

When I said I’d really fight for you

When it came to it I just broke down

Deleted your number from my phone

Man, you should know it really hurt to the bone

I don’t think I’ve ever felt more alone

 

I’m sorry for whatever I said that got us fucked up

I really try, but it’s never enough

You were one of a kind, you know

And I don’t have a backup

 

I hope you stay sane and safe

I hope you get clean

I’m sorry for what went down in the aftermath

Probably doesn’t matter to you, but I never did it to be mean

 

You ment something special you know

I really did miss you the moment you left

I think I loved you more than I was able to show

Ain’t that many people that has truly mattered to me

And I never told you, but

you felt like my blood, like family..

We were both the same kind of fucked up

And there is a whopping 7 billion of us

But I don’t have a backup

 

To all my bad girls

Happy Valentines and don’t change ❤️😈

 

 

 

Get you a girl who can cook, who can clean

A girl you can treat as shit as you please

and still she’ll never be mean

Get you a girl who’s solid like a rock

Someone you can treat as you please

She’ll stay faithful to your cock

But she won’t ride you ‘till the bed rocks..

And after a while

You’ll go back to jacking off in your old socks

🎵

Well, I don’t care what your mama told you

Bad girls are the best girls

🎵

I’m taking these pills just so I won’t go to war against my hood

Everyone knows I am crazy

Still don’t get me misunderstood

There’s a part of me I just can’t and won’t tame

So many people grow up just to be lame

And they’ll look at you and judge you and expect you to do the same

Join the rat race, get married, get kids, but I’m sorry to say

I just don’t wanna play that game

🎵

And I don’t care what your mama told you

Bad girls are the best girls

🎵

And all these men will chase you

When rep get’s around that you’re real good at what you do

At first they just wanna play you

Get the pleasure, then walk out the door

Then they think about you, wanting more

Thinking ‘bout having you all the time

And if they married this bad girl, is it a crime?

But bad girls ain’t waiting for men to get in line

And they can live without you just fine

🎵

I don’t care, don’t care what your mama told you

Bad girls are, are the best girls

🎵

Handcuffed in the streets

A real freak in the sheets

Go all out on ya every day of the week

But real picky and knows just what I seek

And don’t expect me to get weak in my knees

You better know just how to please

‘Cuz a bad girl is real good at self-satisfaction

And she’s not afraid of your reaction

When she’s done, you’ll never see her again

Better enjoy what you have when you get her in action

🎵

I don’t care what your mama said

I know I still play on repeat in your head

Bad girls, bad girls

Bad girls are the best girls

🎵

A bad girl can go for years

Without anyone, she’s got no fears

Unafraid to be alone

She can satisfy herself all by herself at home

And a bad girl can go for years

Without shedding any tears

Doesn’t dream of white dresses, champagne

Not afraid to miss her train

She’s king and queen in her own mind

In sunshine and in rain

She can take the good and the pain

No man can change who she is at the core

Fuck with her all you want

She stays true to herself, she stays the same

🎵

Bad girls, bad girls

All my bad girls

Don’t care what they say, nah

Bad girls are the best girls

 

Pornstar lovin’

It’s funny how I can strip down right in front of your eyes

And still you don’t really see me

I’ve been lying to myself I guess

Telling myself I can do without

Someone who actually gives a shit

That there is a universe inside my mind

Someone who still pays attention

When the action is over and I’m back in my clothes

It seems that to a lot of men

The fact that I have a brain is beyond their comprehension

 

Or maybe they just don’t care

Cum in my mouth, then shut up bitch

But lately that mouth seem to twitch

from the words I feel the need to spit

Bite my lip

Crack the whip against my hip

Yeah I’ll hurt you- no guilt trip

Tell you just how little you really mean to me, no censorship

I bet you think you do the trick

Ey, I am your gloryhole in the wall, and you you’re just a dick

 

Let’s not, let’s not pretend

The only thing I’ll do for you is bend

Ain’t no breaking hearts in this

We both know we feel nothing

It’s just desire

That’s how we’re wired

But lately I’ve been tired

Orgasms are great, but they don’t last long enough

To justify

Let’s not pretend, babe

Don’t even try

I’m so damn good at telling when you lie

 

I always said I’m enough for me

Truth is I’m more than I can handle actually

But this woman sure loves to be free

It’s just this dreadful feeling

that no one really hear or see or feel me

I’m just not vibing with my species

Maybe I should be locked up with the monkeys in the Zoo, throwing feices

Life does tend to feel like a cage

And everyone loves a magic dragon that gives ‘em what they want but

ain’t a damn soul who wants to be around her when she lets out her rage

 

I’m just a pornstar, I just do the kinda loving that’s fake

If I had some real love between my hands

that’s probably more than I could take

I always say I’m heartless, that there’s nothing to break

So let’s go again tonight

and I’ll turn on the light

and I’ll moan and scream, make a real good scene

and act like you really do tempt me

But goddamn do I feel hollow and empty

 

Let’s not pretend

1,2,3 ACTION

You come, I come, it’s satisfaction

But still, it’s a game

And I wonder sometimes in the middle of it

Why I’m thinking of someone else’s name

And you, you probably do the same

 

Pornstar lovers, we are pornstar lovers

Doing pornstar lovin’

Two people who fuck when they feel like giving in

At least there’s no need for forgiving

We ain’t much but we do the trick

I’m your gloryhole in the wall, and you you’re just a dick

Fuck until we both sore

Ain’t none of us admitting that

we crave for more

 

Pornstar lovin’

It’s just pornstar lovin’